remember

[beautifulwithin]

remember when i used to beat up my arms? um because i felt so bad that i knew so much and i was having a huge poetry success. well it wasn't just my arms. i also hit my wrists and cheekbones. well i stopped for a year (today marks a year) but i had been doing that for about 2 years, the beating. so my point is: yes i have accomplished my goal of 3

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[foxkid200]

wtf why on earth did you do this to yourself!? your too talented to waste and too special to forsake your skin like that...oh sarai im so sorry life is misusing you. your better than that!

Remebering

[ext_3165]

I am sorry that you ever felt the need to punish yourself for your success. Please, remember always, that taking a break and centering yourself is not a bad thing. You are one of the most intelligent people I know and I foresee you going far in life. The everyday stuff can weigh on us, feeling like we will never break free, but you must look to the future, envision in your mind's eye where you want to go.
As with your 3 year goal, you know that bruises fade.. but often we are left with the residual affects of our decisions. These become a part of us, but they are not what define us. Life is a precious gift. And with that, I send you the serenity prayer. You are not alone.