So after a long hiatus I've decided to post my amusing day. Granted the day isn't over yet, but I am sitting by a computer and if I don't act on this impulse now, lord knows I'll never return to update ( Read more... )

There are so many things I wish I could undo. I guess time will decide which of my messes I will be able to fix, and which ones are out of control.

I miss...I miss my friends.
I miss knowing who my friends are.
I miss knowing who I am.

help me...gods i'm falling again and i don't even know why...

I don't know why...but deep down school isn't making things better. It isn't that I'm not doing well academically, but something is still off ( Read more... )

if anyone has discovered, invented, concocted, or stumbled upon an elixir that cures jealousy, pettiness, and self-loathing i would be entirely great-full if you could pass some my way.

thanks a bunch :)

life fucking sucks...
that is all

for some strange reason i am being pulled by conflicting loyalties: keep listening to whrw or stop the pain of listening to who is on the air. decisions...decisions...sleep solves everything :)

An idiot messed with a dear friend.

My heart shattered.

I failed my reclearence exam.

and let's not forget getting thrown at a fucking tree by the epitome of human weakness.

What a great start to college...

Tonight starts the Jewish holiday of Tishabav. It's basically all the mourning and angst of Judaism poured into one day of fasting, praying, and lamenting for falling out of the grace of G-d and then returning to G-d's "bosom". My problem is, and has been all of this year, that i just don't feel connected to the practical application of my Jewish ( Read more... )

why is it i find myself incapable of being a civil rational human being around my family? ach the ones i love the most are the ones who get all my pent up anger and foolishness. ironically enough, its always their foolishness that sets me off. i just seem to have more patience for everyone else, because i haven't come to expect a degree of ( Read more... )