I started this LJ in 2004 and I haven't posted since 2011. I forgot about it mostly and I grew out of my emo, must document every part of my life, phase. I miss writing though. I miss being part of a community that isn't about just doing some stupid shit in front of a camera and becoming famous. I love to write and I haven't had that passion for ( Read more... )

 I'm asking him to know what he wants when I'm not even sure I really do. I know I like him and I know I like being with him but sometimes I just feel like there is no point. I just wish that for once something would go the way I want it to. I hate feeling like I'm wasting time. I hate feeling like I'm the only one who wants anything more then this ( Read more... )

So since watching The Social Network, I have decided to start my livejournal back up again. I think it helped me to be able to get my feelings out. No bullshit, no words strung together in an eloquent way. No trying to make it sound good so people comment and people talk about how awesome my blog is. I don't care if everyone or no one comments or ( Read more... )

Wow, its been so long. Does anyone even get on LJ anymore??

<3 <3 <3

I cant stand my life like this.

I'm almost gone.

Wow. So much has happened since my last entry ( Read more... )

I don't know how to say what lingers on my mind. I dont know how to put the confusion, misguidance, and passion into words. It's strange when people from your past come back to be a large infulence in your future.

Rum.
Blunt.
Beer.
A friend of mine.

Who the hell let me drive home last night. ha.

Shoot. Max's was much much much fun!!

This is it. That point in my life where I need to make decisions. Choices that will affect the rest of my life. I need to grow up. I need to stop relying on other people. I can't keep living like this. I can't depend on other people for the rest of my life. I'm the only who can make the choices and decisions that will affect me life, for me. I need ( Read more... )

Before I begin this entry I would just like to take this time to say that the spill canvas is amazing and you should all go listen to them right now.


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