Yesterday was really hard to get through. All I wanted to do was sit down, and turn on some porn.  Which is weird because I know I can go a week without porn; I've done it before.  Of course, all I did was think about sex all day instead, which isn't much better.  I know I've never had it, but this is just ridiculous.  Is this how guys feel?  It ( Read more... )

Hello,

My name is Lacey, and I'm a porn addict.  But, I'm trying to quit it, starting now.  It's not going to be easy, I know that.  I've been telling myself to stop for a while now, and obviously that hasn't been happening.  I don't really even know why I started down that path, but I finally have the motivation to really kick this habit: you see, ( Read more... )

FUCK YOU.

What the hell?  Why in all of Your Name did you have to create me?  I didn't ask for this.  I never wanted this.  I hate life, I hate it and I hate you for giving it to me.

Existing is an ever looping, uncontrollable nightmare that I just want to wake up from.  I just want to stop.  Everything forever.  It's not fair or loving or kind that ( Read more... )

I think I don't believe in marriage.

I believe in 'mating' and/or life partnership, but I don't believe in the legal institution of Marriage.

I've always had reservations and qualms with what exactly marriage is good for or does, and as i get older, those issues just seem to expand and grow.  I recognize that marriage was implemented in the endeavor ( Read more... )

Do you believe that there is more good or evil in the world? Or do you think it's balanced?

This subject came up during my English class and has been bugging me all day.  I'm of the opinion that there is in fact, more evil/badness/ill in the world than Good.  I know that's very pessimistic and sad, but to me it makes sense.

Since I'm a christian, my ( Read more... )

I'm pretty sure I had a panic attack Friday.  No joke.

I woke up feeling disoriented and anxious and things just spiraled down from there. I ended up crying intermittently throughout the day for almost no reason, my depression grew worse and I just wanted to not exist.  Then in the afternoon it grew to it's worse. It was like there was a taunt line ( Read more... )

I've been majorly distracting myself from this depression. So much so that I haven't made that doctors appointment I was supposed to last week. It's just easier this way.

If I keep laughing and smiling and be completely outrageous then I won't have to think. Thinking is bad when I'm in this state; it leads to suicidal logic.  Music helps to - to ( Read more... )

Okay this is just sad.

I have apparently lost my headphones but I'm so depressed I don't even care. That's completely abnormal for me, by the way. I'm not the type to go "Oh, hum, it seems I've lost this; oh well I can always get some more next time I go to the store" No I'm the person that flips out and takes the house/room with me. I turn ( Read more... )

So I really want to see Clash of the Titans even though it's going to be horrible and I'll leave disappointed. I'm a masochist.

But y'all Titans clash. How is that not awesome? Well, aside from the whole not-actually-Titans thing, and the whole srs bdns actorz and not going along with the original myth and no real clashing. (I've been trolling the ( Read more... )