last night i watched 40 days and 40 nights, and it was just as cute as i remembered it to be. i like the idea of lent a lot, it's something that interests me, though i don't know what i'd give up ( Read more... )

i was in a really good mood, after having slept in,reading in bed all afternoon and then going to the library to borrow cd's and movies. i learned how to roll a cigarette and after three trys had made one worth smoking. i ate my dinner at a picnic table. and i've almost ate all my bagels and feta spread ( Read more... )

the other day i finished more,now,again by elizabeth wurtzel and now i'm reading a memoir which i think is called skin games. reading things seems like looking in the past but with a clearer head on my shoulders ( Read more... )

when does happiness and depression collide, and where are the lines drawn to make them seperate from eachother. when does the music fade into the reality zone and when do the feelings make sense completely. is it possible to know all the answers and see everything you want to see but hide from all you don't. is hiding always a mistake. is looking ( Read more... )

yesterday i dropped balloons off at adam's, sadly he wasn't there for me to see him ( Read more... )

we've spent a lot of time downtown lately,
it hasn't been out of fun, though i have enjoyed the less stressful moments.
tobias bunny and i prayed and what we prayed for happened, he's my lucky bunny.

before we even understand the concept of values they are put upon us. these are your values, this is what you believe, this is how you should feel, this is what you think. morals, beliefs, ideas, values, thoughts, feelings, rules- it's all thought up for us before we understand what they are and what options we have. and once you're able to ( Read more... )

there are times when i feel like dying, not out of unhappiness but out of unsurity [to be unsure] if that's a word and mabe out of being desperate but mostly because i don't know what else to do.
i hate when we argue and i love when we talk. i'm better at making future plans than immediate ones.
i'm afraid sometimes.

i watch shows about people having babies and i cry. i'm interested in home schooling but i think the cons would out weigh and pros. and now i'm reading about adoption. kelvin is working a long day, something like 13 hrs...this is the life of restaurants..this is my day off ( Read more... )

we picked up linds on sunday, and we had some fun at value village because i call the shots, we went to pacific mall and market village and too good pond and teashop 168 and vip and first markham and the mall just long enough to get a photo booth pic done and judge doogans- basically i showed her all the places i go regularly which was cool becase ( Read more... )