Its not that late but it sucks that is so early because i know that i have a very long night ahead of me. I can't sleep whitout the help of sleeping pills and even then i only get a few hours of sleep at a time. I have no idea why. My mind won't leave me alone. It teases me and beggs me to stay awake. What can i say i just can't say no. You never ( Read more... )

This is the first. The first whatever you want to call it. I guess i should start with a reason. I'm doing this because i need to release what ever this shit is in my mind. Everything in me keeps me from sleeping because all it does is float around eating me not so quietly. And i'm going insane, or so it feels like. I have always pretended that i ( Read more... )