my mother driving me to work, dance, and from school every day until tuesday is going to kill me out of sheer frustration.either that, or my twenty minute coughing fits will.
i felt like hanging myself today.
so i did.
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i'm not enthused to be losing my car for at least a week.
i never realized how much shit was in my car until i had to clean it out.

one of the many PR firms in california my dad sent his resume to should call him back soon.they should call him and tell him they have an ideal job opportunity that pays well and won't ever lay him off, situated on the edge of LA.and then i should apply to SFSU and get accepted.
yes.
that would be nice.

check out my antibiotics.

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i got a warning ticket today.i had very shot and short neves today.i realized even if i was a lesbian i wouldn't get more ass.i had a stupid day.i am a stupid person.i hate starting so many sentences with i.

this is a stupid entry.

driving home tonight something came over me.i suddenly got so, so angry.i don't know what at; life, maybe.but i was gripping the steering wheel and crushing my cigarette and shaking so hard i thought i might fall apart.i went 70 through curves and wanted so bad just to flip my car and die.i'm sort of scared of myself right now.

and it's the times when i cough so hard tears push themselves out of my tightly shut eyes and my body rocks and shakes as if my lungs are earthquakes themselves ( Read more... )

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all i can listen to is this song.jesus.there are times when i listen to it and i start crying from the truth of it all.and there are times when it makes me want to smash some skulls.i don't even know ( Read more... )

they don't love you like i love you.
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and we'll pretend that it meant something so much more
but it was vile, and it was cheap
and you are beautiful but you don't mean a thing to me.

THERE IS NEVER GOING TO BE A REASON TO FOLLOW THROUGH WITH ME.