2 more days and the parents come home..
its hard to think that things happen for a reason.. maybe one day things will be good :)
keeping optimistic is what i need to do.

"if the sun shuts down and decided not to shine no more
I would still have you..."

im sitting here cryin my eyes out, wishing i could scream out to the world how much i want my family back together.
my mom texted me yesterday morning with "hi con, i really miss you." i called her back and all i could hear was her trying to cover up her crying. i ( Read more... )

Christmas is coming. I miss mother.

Our life's a stage, a comedy: either learn to play and take it lightly, or bear its troubles patiently.
Palladas

slowly, i take in every breath and begin to breathe again. 
And it feels good.

life is like a pop bottle,
the more your shake it, the faster it'll explode.  - ( Read more... )

"Don't worry about tomorrow, don't think about yesterday, don't live in the future, just make it through today"

so, its been three weeks since the news broke out.  i think im doing way better than expected. at first i wasnt sure if i really could deal with it but with the help of good friends and a drink here and there, Im good. the only time ( Read more... )

game over.

today i was suppose to go out.. maybe win some money or whatever but then in the end... i decided not to.. i really dont know why, but i just really didnt feel like seeing anyone.  my mood is just not there.. it feels so weird not to talk to someone your use to talking to EVERYDAY! man.. its ok though. i think this is what i need.. i don think ( Read more... )

lately my mom has been asking me strange questions.. "do you ever just get sad and cry" or "do you ever feel sad for no reason?" i usually never know what to say so i tell her "its probably the weather and the gloominess". but just hearing her ask those questions makes me really uncomfortably sad. im her only daughter yet i really don know how to ( Read more... )

so its wednesday, the middle of the week. how exciting. the weekend is coming up!! robyn da hood in the houseeee! haha man i cant wait to party it up with some old faces i havent seen for awhile. good times.
omg work have been so slow, only about half the avg ppl i want per day; making me broke!!
arizona is coming up! i love that state. its sunny, ( Read more... )

i want my bangs JUST a little longerrrrrr!

im so scared to take my wisdom teeth out!! after watching the movie awake im so paranoid of the anesthesia!

i wanna do this haircut on TAMMY!

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