I haven't updated in awhile. There's usually reason for that, and lately it's been because there's been nothing to report. Everything is just different shades of the same. I dont want to make it my destiny to bore those of you who still chose to read this to death with the monotony that is my life. But I write tonight with good reason, to get ( Read more... )

I dedicate this entry to Olivia. I am so sorry that had to happen. If there is anything I can do let me know. Love you babe :)

For those of you who don't understand, her aunt's house burned down this morning. Shows you...anything can happen.

    So I haven't written in forever and a half, and ( Read more... )

Oh and it broke my heart to pieces,
And I questioned my own beliefs.
My dignity was gone,
But it's time to move on.
Beneath the shelter of the pouring rain
In the absence of this fear and pain
I will finally be my ball and chain...


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Man what did I get myself into? I really never thought I'd be on the other side of this spectrum. It feels so nice, so safe...but so unfortunate for the odd man out. It was SO hard hanging out w/ both of them tonight. I had to act, to watch what I did, what I said...to purjure. I was so shameful. I need to fix this. What is going on?

Your Ultimate Purity Test 2.0 Score Is... Your Score:Average For All UsersAverage For All
( total) Dating61.54%32.96%Flirts mildly, then runs away Self-Lovin'90.91%60.59%Never taken out of the packaging Shamelessness95.16%77.85%Has yet to see self in mirror Dominant98.33%86.8%Afraid to cross at "Don't Walk" signs Fucking Sick95.92%89.84% ( Read more... )

I hate getting up early.  Stupid new job oreintations.  Oh well, I got paid for 3 hours of signing my autograph on an infinity of papers.  I always thought my mom was lying when she told me that when I started working that my social security number would be as common as my first name.  She wasn't.  I must have written it 57 times today.  And an ( Read more... )

I love having something to look forward to. It makes whatever I'm going through so much easier. I can get into that mindset of 'If I can make it through this I get to...', it works really well. That said June 3rd the roomie Lucy and I are headed down to Oregon. Staying in Eugene with my crazy S3 boys. We plan to see Cannon Beach and a few ( Read more... )

Tonight was mad fun.  I just smiled the entire time.  Julie called Judi and invited her to dinner.  Judi texted me and I in turn invited Andrew.  Julie turned her nose up at that...her highness wouldn't want scum like Andrew and I with HER at dinner.  Well she can shove it up her ass for all I care.  As Lucy put it, it's funny that she thinks she ( Read more... )

This is the first time looking at facebook made me feel this way. I'll try to describe it. I feel hopeful, yet hopeless at the same time. I feel myself standing at the edge of something great, but I also feel I'm standing at the brim looking in...all the while missing out on the goings on. I feel a yearning for September, then I step back and ( Read more... )