I feel the need to have a record of the events of today, September 28, 2012 (as my cooperating teacher would say, “the only September 28, 2012 that’s ever going to happen“). Nothing monumental or outwardly significant happened, at all. But it kept striking me as I went about the business of the day how representative these small events were of ( Read more... )

He is winning me over for real now, so quickly. I am terrified it will implode as soon as I start to trust it and settle into it, but I'm gonna do so anyway. This really might be something.

So I have a boyfriend. It's been a very, very long time since I uttered those words...the last person I called my boyfriend was Jack Young, back in 2006. And that lasted about a month. I am 31, and the longest official relationship I ever has was about 6 months long, and we only behaved as boyfriend and girlfriend for about a month of that. I am so ( Read more... )

Human relationships remain such a mystery to me; how we can be seemingly so close to one another, and then, suddenly, entirely separated (this is true of romance, sex, friendship). And how the separations, although they hurt like hell, reinforce our sense of self, of autonomy. When I love someone and lose them from my life, I eventually feel ( Read more... )

Hello, Livejournal. It's been a long time and I doubt very many people are still out there. But since I am currently unemployed, with a wealth of time and a brain that is constantly moving, I'm thinking a return to this outlet could be a good thing ( Read more... )

So this might sound crazy, but I've just had a somewhat mystical experience, or at least transcendent. It will take a bit to explain, so bear with me ( Read more... )

Sometimes I wonder if I am putting myself on a fast road to a lonely rest of my life. I used to like people, a lot. I used to be pretty damn social. I used to get crushes on people all the time. I used to make friends easily, and keep them around for a good while. But lately, I have the hardest time doing any of that. I rarely meet new people that ( Read more... )

Last night I had a dream that I got fired from the Strand through a text message. I remember vividly the exhilarating sense of freedom I had in the dream. My immediate plan was to file for unemployment and get a part time job. My brain even dreamed up unemployment forms ( Read more... )

There is so much dust being kicked up right now, in all kinds of ways. Suddenly I am completely disoriented. It's disconcerting, but I have to remember that historically, I like change. Periods of change are ones that I look back on in a positive light. Times when things are flying every which way are the times that push life forward, and when the ( Read more... )

I haven’t posted on livejournal in forever, obviously, but I am currently facing the exact sort of adolescent quandary that lends itself to expression through this venue ( Read more... )