i know in my heart that i'm not. i know myself well enough to know that i'm not. but deep down inside of me there is this little screaming voice saying "what if you are?"

i need to stop fucking life up. that would be good for my health.

i need to drop out of school and move to new jersey with melody.

and swimming needs to keep up this whole not cramping my style bit.

Have You Ever ( Read more... )

so the past three days i have been real sick.

fever of 104.

and i swear to god if they reschedule that missed swim meet for friday i might BAWL.

anyways. i'm dying.

i just want everyone to know that i am really happy not giving a damn about anything.

not swimming. not grades. not my looks. not your stupid drama. not track. not my health. not my reputation.

not a thing but my FRIENDS/FAMILY and fast times.

my only new years resolution is to get you in bed. twice.

last weekend i went to the most kick ass party. & you didnt.
the end.

today at practice i over herd robert lugg say ( Read more... )

( Read more... )

long time no post.

i hate everyting at the same time i love everything.