I keep playing it over and over in my head... then I look myself in the eye (well at least the reflection of my eyes in a mirror) and tell myself I did the right thing. Becca you did the right thing...you did!

I've been having trouble sleeping the last two weeks. I've been trying to get to bed at a decent hour and then once I'm in bed I just lay there for almost two hours until I finally fall asleep. Then I end up waking up at 4am to pee and then I feel unrested any way, because I had interrupted sleep. When my alarm wakes me up in the morning I'm all ( Read more... )

Things seem to be settling down for me. I've kind of made this unconscious decision somewhere in the back of my mind that my next career move will be some where out of state or even out of the country (but still within the company). It's actually a really exciting prospect to me. We have a sister plant in Germany... and although I speak no ( Read more... )

At the end of June one of the girls I work with contract ran out. They were happy to give her another year, but she had already planned to move to Alaska. Can I tell you how jealous I am of this woman? She just packed up her car and took off. She took a month to get there and went site seeing on the way. I wish I could do that. Just pack up ( Read more... )

My mother tricked me. Saturday my mom left me three voicemails about going to the church picnic this past Sunday. I decided it couldn't hurt. I would get free picnic food and get a few minutes to spend with my parents. Yeah she tricked me... they had a devotional up there as well. I should have realized that this would have to be part of the ( Read more... )

Is it bad that the only time I ever update my journal is at work? Last week was stressful at work and now it's Monday and quiet and I'm about to fall asleep at my desk. I can just imagine falling asleep on my keyboard and then waking up to go to a meeting and not even thinking about the J K L imprint on my cheek. I'm sure someone would figure it ( Read more... )

Every time I hang out with Chris I end up crying myself to sleep in some way. I went to this kegger with him on Saturday for a guy I met while doing my internship several years ago and we decided to go together. I told him I would drive so he could actually drink and not worry about driving home. Well when Chris gets drunk he starts talking and ( Read more... )

The last couple weeks... months... have been tough for me. I guess I didn't realize how bad I've felt until I've kind of started to come out of it. I don't want to say I've been depressed, but I've been in a really weird place in my life. I can't say I haven't been having a good time, because I've been able to do a lot of good things this year ( Read more... )

So I'm officially all moved into my new house! (rented but it's still mine for at least a year) I love it so far! I'm out in the country just far enough to love how peaceful it is out there, but close enough to town to not feel totally isolated. I think I'll be happy out there. I have all these little projects planned for the property. By the ( Read more... )

I'm glad I've been posting to my journal again. It makes me feel so much better ( Read more... )