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The rant of a single mother...not enough hours in a day
I am so lucky to have such wonderful children. Every night I sure do enjoy having a little bit of downtime, but shortly after I do put them to bed, I start to miss them ( Read more... ) -
A Novel Idea
I have decided that I am going to write a novel about Aisling’s life or rather based on her life. I could incorporate themes from the lives of many acquaintances and friends. I have so much anger toward her aunt for taking her son Aiden from her. She promised her to help her and take the baby until she could get back on her feet and then she filed ( Read more... ) -
A day makes a difference...
Today went a lot better than I had hoped. I was so scared last night I hardly slept, then Patrick came out and said he couldn’t sleep at around midnight. He had a 100.9 F, temperature; or at least I think he did, depending upon if I took it correctly. No matter how many times I have read the directions on that thing, it is so hard to get the child ( Read more... ) -
Misery loves company
Today was the day of other people trying to pull me into their worlds of misery. Eckhart Tolle, talks about this in A New Earth (see earlier posts), he named it a pain body. Other people’s pain body’s try to activate yours. The energy gets thrown back and forth. The only way to avoid this is to try and stay present. This has been a very ( Read more... ) -
Mama knows best...
Today I confirmed that no one is going to do a better job raising my two beautiful children than I am. I don’t care what state agency has licensed them or where they got their masters degree from. Only I have that gut feeling of what my child needs at that exact moment. Only I will agonize on each major decision I make for them, knowing the ( Read more... ) -
Missing my Patrick
I miss Patrick so much. He is only gone for one night at my mother’s house, but I feel like I am reliving our separation all over again. I am reading that book A New Earth, and one of its main rules is that you cannot allow the past to keep you from being present now. I am trying my best to become aware of when I am doing this, but the feelings are ( Read more... ) -
Getting back in touch
I have a couple of entries that I have been working on off line. But I just wanted to write something. I have to get a writing schedule set and stick to it. I have been focusing on my reading. I have read a lot of memoir and am taking a class/webinar online with Eckhardt Tolle and Oprah. Its about enlightenment.... its totally changing how I look ( Read more... ) -
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Note to self. Never post directly on live journal because explorer will always freeze up and you will lose your entire post. So anyway as I was saying I got my psych results back today. I am not very happy, no answers, and feeling very discouraged. Why am I such a loser. One of the things the doctor actually told me was not to have any more kids ( Read more... ) -
Staying connected...I love you Lady!
My laptop died today and then miraculously came back to life. It was giving this really weird message about corruption. It gave me some pretty hard core methods to bring it back to life, kind of like getting your ribs broken while someone gives you CPR. It turned out it was just a precautionary message, like the one you get when you shut your ( Read more... )
