I'm so confused with love.

 i've got to get out of my own damn head.

I feel like shit, so I'm allowed to. I let myself get excited and happy. I was excited for once, happy that things were going my way. With the jobs and school. And my therapist tells me I'm over pushing myself with my workload and that I'm setting myself up for failure. And Jimmy's dad says I'm probably not going to pass the drug test. and Then I'm ( Read more... )

W. Therapy, school, Min pin shopping, packing some clothes.
Th. School at 8 am til 9 pm, house-stting and dog-sitting Jimmy's mom's house.
F. Doctor's appointment/physical/drug test. Hottub/date night. 
Sa. Relaxing Saturday studying and doing homework at Jimmy's mom's. Seeing Across the Universe. 
Su. More homework.

Then if I pass my drug test I ( Read more... )

Don't get me wrong, I want nice things. I do, I want the nice car, the cute house and the nice clothes. But when I start to let material possessions consume who I am as a person, someone please slap me. I want a nice classy wedding, I want a healthy happy family. 
I want to give my kids nice things and a good education, but I don't want material ( Read more... )

What I want for my birthday: 

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Why was last night so good and tonight so bad?  

Where I go into my phase where nothing really hypes me. I'm watching t.v. and I don't really care if it's on or if it's off. I'm hanging out and I'd rather just be sleeping. Where I feel nothing for anything. And I don't honestly understand what springs these moods on. How one moment I can want to hold hands and giggle, then the next I'm dying to ( Read more... )

I think that all in all in life, I've come out pretty much on top when it comes to friends. There never was a huge abundance of friends in elementary school, I think because very few understood me. Which is fine, because I have more than enough to understand me now.

True there are a few people not in my life, and I wish they were, but I guess that' ( Read more... )

Upcoming Events. New News. Social Calendar. Academic Schedule. 
Call it what you will, my life is filling up.

And the greatest thing is this time around it feels so right. I couldn't care less if I should fill my schedule with things you'd be jealous of. What's the point in doing things to impress others. I'm doing things that I love doing. Each day ( Read more... )