I am coping. I am coping with out drugs. Without drinking. I am coping by falling back into the people that i know will hurt me in the end. It was almost as simple as contemplating filling the void with getting high or drug and remaining in such a state until the end of time. It seemed inconvenient with my current job though & filling the void with ( Read more... )

This is going to be my love letter that I'll never send because you will never read it. & I suppose if anyone does read this you should know I am listening to Both Hands -Ani Difranco on repeat while writing ( Read more... )

"I need a break" What does this mean? A break from what? From us? From me? From your life? Apparently it means from her life not from me, but from me. Makes sense right ( Read more... )

I am a woman ( Read more... )

Why would you ask me for advice if you are simply not going to take it? Why would you ask if you are going to defend your own opinion with made up facts you know aren't true? Why even bother? It is just going to piss me off, again because you once again won't listen to me when you asked for help. I just can't stand it anymore. Its not fair. I am ( Read more... )

I finally gave in an bought a new laptop. I also gave up on PC's since I was in no mood to put up with windows 7, so here i sit with my shiny new macbook pro. We are in love ( Read more... )

A while back i wrote a post about how much i missed making love, not fucking, not just sex, making love. hiimames referenced that post recently and it was funny to me only because it had been on my mind as well. Martha and i ended, almost two years to the day from when we began. I don't remember what i said, i let my body take over for my mind and ( Read more... )

We sat there that first night, both curious but both too shy to say anything. some how turkey sandwiches and cucumbers came up and we both yelled at ashley at the same time but they are delicious! and thats when we both knew we needed to find out more ( Read more... )

How can someone that knows you inside and out, is your best friend, that knows how fucking much you love them turn around and tell you that they know things are going to work out with their ex? How can someone do this? I can't stop crying, i want to scream but i dont even have the guts to point out to them that this is breaking my heart. Not like ( Read more... )

http://www.mcla.edu/news/labpartners_156/

this pretty much explains why i don't update til i have a mental breakdown.

speaking of which, i think one may be coming soon.