I have been in constant battle with addiction lately. I have yet to give in and actually say i have a drug/alcohol problem, but i know, just from the way i feel that i could be any second, any day i give in to it. I have been so strict with myself to maintain balance, control. I limit myself. only weekends. nothing during the week. control. control ( Read more... )

I came to the conclusion last night (while very stoned) that i really should update this more. I really should update when i'm high cause lets face it everything makes more sense. Instead i had a 3 hour debate about the existence of god ( Read more... )

I am so disappointed in human kind. I have been on the verge of this breakdown for days, perhaps even longer than that, weeks, months, years. I havent cried yet. I am not ready for that yet. I hate the end of the semester. Its like torture. Everything comes crashing down all at once. & then someone does something so simple that hurts so much. Like ( Read more... )

So i have a potentially sexually abusive boyfriend ( Read more... )

I am really torn right now. I want to leave BGLAD (the gay club) even though i am VP and i love the club i cannot stand the president. He used to be a good friend of mine but now his life is all about being high, all the time. EVERY meeting. EVERY day. EVERY night. All the time. & he does nothing, he doesnt show up on time, and when he does show up ( Read more... )

Realllly not ready to handle you in my life again.

God i cant handle westfield lesbians ever again. Thank god i dont live there anymore.

If you want to complain about how something is being done. Please have suggestions on how to improved it.

I fucking hate people.

I got so high last night. So high i couldn't feel a fucking thing in the world.

It was the most terrifying & scary night of my life.

You know how i sleep at night?

I sleep knowing that someday someone is going to slowly torment you the same way you try and torment me. & i sleep knowing that you are a bad person inside and out & i am not.

I should be at my counseling appointment right now ( Read more... )