Tonights prom and i good give a fuck because it's not my prom...sry if im blunt... i dont care..yesturday i want to the R&R banket with tammy... had fun hangin out and makin fun of ppl that's about it... i realized something in school... i can never be what he wants... im not her and i could PUT A NAME TO HER BUT NO....im tired of getting let down ( Read more... )

I am going to be really free in this journal because obvious that no one reads it any ways so im talk to myself bascially ..getting shit off my chest

Ive been trying to hard with this weight program and everyone who knows me and actaully pays attention has been seeing me eat healthler and im been doing all this shit ... IM SO TIRED OF IT.... i want ( Read more... )

I know I'm not the kinda person he likes , im not all , lets put it in lowest terms im not (kt like) and I know set this big hope for me that eventually fails everytime in the end...and I dont know what to do anymore because i dont even know im doing it..i even tell myself ." Now stephanie dont fall , dont let him get to you so quick.." but then i ( Read more... )

Work today was alright... our cook kat who is the most wonderful , funniest,lovablist (lol) person i know i love her to death but i dont want to get a call someday and someone tell me shes dead.. she needs to striaghten up she's getting older and she cant keep this up..and if she cant see that there's ppl around her who adore her then SHE'S BLIND! ( Read more... )

Yesturday wasnt so bad at work... except... i was late as hell getting home and today i just fell alseep as soon as i got home..there's something wrong with me!? And then tam came over. she played pool with lu lu and then we went to Kmart...funniest shit .. there was this epsiode of made where this girl made her own dress out of duck tape...well i ( Read more... )

Im so tired of me and everyone around me... I can never change if i keep doing this to myself...and I cant just tell you all point blank because you dont know me and the minute I do you'll judge..fucked if I do fucked it I dont.. and it's not like anyone cares nobody reads my journal so i could say anything and it wouldnt matter because youll never ( Read more... )

Hey im writing this just becuase .. i know none of u fuckers will reply or even bother to look so it's just for the hell out it///school was ok today had fun wrestling with lee and had fun in fourth and sixth hour///me and tammy got into it about my looks and it kinda made me mad i love you girl and you are my best firneds but u dont know my looks ( Read more... )

School was school today ...case of the monday...ya know ( Read more... )

hey ( Read more... )

Ever since i got up the smorin i didnt feel good.. every moring i hate getting up.. i sleep alot but it never helps me because my mind NEVER SHUTS UP! i think about everything and i just cant sleep until im done thinkin...well today i came home and i was kinda pissy because everything in my car was messed up because of my dad ... and i just wanted ( Read more... )