i give up

so i had my new classes today. all the guys think sobel is hot even though she looks like a scrawny librarian. i immediately didn't like her. everyone thinks she's a former stripper. lol. there is this hot mohawk boy in our class. the only reason i think he's hot is causa his hair. haha. then we had speech class. o'connor seems ok. i think i'll get ( Read more... )

i decided i need change. i use to live off change. and now everything is the same. so i gotta go find sumthing different. hmm. not sure what though. it'll be a mission. i can't really change my surroundings, so i'll prolly end up changing myself in sum kinda way ( Read more... )

i'm 19, but it's no big deal i guess. two of my best friends haven't even called. what a great feeling. blah. i wish i could disappear now. if it was warm right now i'd go for a long walk. but it's cold. so i'm here on the computer. o well.

i talked to mr. thomas today. he said i failed cause i turned my paper in a day late. but i explained to him that i even asked him if i could still turn the paper in and he was like, "if u turn it in now, u won't fail it". so... if he does fail me i'll be angry. i'll just wear a busty shirt tomorrow and maybe he'll let it slide. haha ( Read more... )

so, last night i hung out with megan for a lil bit. then i talked to alexa on the phone and told her sumthing semi big and she hung up on me, but then we talked about it after that and it was ok. then i dropped megan off and went to hang out with em, annie, and angela. we went to an internet cafe with wes, chris, john, and jason. i sat next to a ( Read more... )

i'm sick. i don't know why. my cheeks are burning up, my stomach doesn't wanna stay there, i'm shakie and ick. not to mention i'm at megan's house, so now is not a good time to be ill. how to get better? that is the question. sumtimes i just wanna start life over. that'd be cool, cept i wouldn't wanna go through certain stages of my life again, ( Read more... )

i'm at sam's. yesterday i went to nina's aunt's house. as soon as i get finished with the hour and a half drive, my dad calls and tells me to turn around. so eventually i convinced him otherwise. i'm good at that. lol. we got to meet nina's friends from school. half of them are cool. had to come home early today for work. it was kinda stressful. my ( Read more... )

I'm at this place and i think it's called xactek, but i'm not positive. it's basically this huge computer lab with a bunch of computer geeks playing xbox live type games. its really dark and there's cigarette smoke in the air, background noise of guns shooting in all different directions. it's a different atmosphere. em's b/f and his friends ( Read more... )

help. internet keeps disconnecting. and i haven't really talked to my friends in three days. i need to socialize, but i can't! i'm going psycho. sumbody help me. or call me. anything.