Reactivated bitches! Just because I feel like it.

I don't know how I ended up here, but I'm not asking any questions. I screw shit up when I ask questions. But I'm happy, I know that. And that's all that matters really.

Powerful feel I.

It's okay to not want what everyone else wants. I certainly don't.

I was scared for a second there. Thought I had lost what I guess I had all the while.

i'm gonna make a mistake. i'm gonna' do it on purpose. i'm gonna waste my time. 'cos i'm full as a tick. and i'm scratchin' at the surface. and what i find is mine.

and when the day is done, and i look back, and the fact is i had fun, fumbling around, all the advice i shunned and i ran, where they told me not to run, but i sure had fun.

It's easy to forget who you are when you're busy carrying around someone else. I'm attempting to make the most of this, considering it a quick twist of fate, easily overcome by strength and cunning ( Read more... )

I'm gonna be truthful here with myself alone. Im in the wrong, this hard edged lesson Ive chosen to learn. It kills, it fucking tears me apart inside, and Im scared. I cant reveal to my loved, I need to deny from myself a certain severity due to the lack of concentration in my future ive been showing ( Read more... )

I've chosen to learn my lesson the hard way. I've got it in me, don't deny me that. I can cope. You'll see.

I'll see it through.

All this preparation. All these classes, the books I've read, the insipid scribblings that fill the pages of my goddawful journals. They don't mean shit. It doesn't mean anything when it all comes down to where I'm going (or not going, really). I'm not going anywhere.

I don't know where to go.