I'm 117 from 122. That's within 3 days, and I haven't weighed myself in 2 because I was at Mikes all weekend and he doesn't have a scale. Unfortunately I did a little partying on Saturday night, and had some food yesterday (Sunday). So I might have put some water weight back on, but I've been drinking tons of water, so I'm not really worried. ( Read more... )

So I signed up for scuba diving lessons and tonight is my first class...woohoo. Actually I am pretty excited because scuba is what I want to do. Yeah I have a college degree, but a job that requires you to dress in something other than a bathing suit is not the job for me. Therefore, I am fasting, and want to lose at lease 4 pounds by thursday ( ( Read more... )

So, I was just checking my email, and I got one from my mom - she sent me a fucking website about "how to recover from anorexia", and what kind of treatment I should get. She didn't even tell me she was sending it to me, my god, how fucking stupid do you have to be? I weight 120 pounds, and I'm 5'6" - that is no way near anorexic, it's actually ( Read more... )

here's an email I recieved from my "friend" of 8 years, asking her to take me off her friends list on lj because I don't want to broadcast my ED to her friends... this was her reply ( Read more... )

SO...fasting/restricting didn't go so well seeing as that I ate today. But I have a 10 mile jog with Steve tonight, so I'm not that worried - I'll burn it all off and remain the same weight - so fast starting again tomorrow. I couldn't even etat that much anways - it just feels wrong and then I think about what I look like naked and I want to ( Read more... )

Did you ever notice that no matter how hard you work at your job, no one ever cares - and the bosses daughter gets away with fucking around all day while you do her work? Yeah, every job I have ever had has been so ass backwards. The people in management know what's going on , but never seem to care - only when you fuck up do the hellfires rain ( Read more... )

Well, as one can imagine that the fast I was supposedly starting yesterday was supposed to happen - and it did, until dinner. I was so hungry so I ate...a lot. So after hating the fact that I ate, I decided that, that was it, I was tired of letting myself down. Today I started - although I have eaten ome jello and lettuce, I don't know if I can ( Read more... )

Well, I think Mike and I are going to break up - he's such a dick, and I told him that we should just break up, and he's like "whatever" which is my response too, because I am not in love with him anymore, the sex sucked like it always has, and he just annoys me. I can't even hardly stand to kiss him anymore, he thinks that since we are ( Read more... )

Well, I am sick - sore throat, burning eyes, I'm thinking about taking airborne that Howard Stern keeps advertising. But I just hate being sick, I don't think anyone really enjoys it - except crazy people ( Read more... )

So Steve at my work always says that Thursday is xmas eve and Friday I Christmas because it's friday...so where are the presents then ( Read more... )