21 days until im home.

it feels like forever. no sleep, lots of sleep, worry, happiness, sadness, it's all there.

i like packing. condensing. reorganizing. getting rid of. cleansing. feels great.

on to bigger and better things. well, maybe not bigger. but definitely better.

I'm feeling deflated. I'm eating great food, hanging out with cool people, doing fun things and soon I find out when I'm coming home and yet I still feel like someone socked me in the gut. Only 6 days to 3 years. I'm not even pumped about that. Hopefully something will come and shake me up.

some people just suck. no changing that.

i suppose i have my worry under control. maybe. it's hard to assess.

no motivation left in me. it's going to be a long 5 months.

but when i get sad i look at my ring and somehow it makes me feel so much better. i got way too immensely lucky in that department. what a dear

my sleep has been terrible. c'est la vie. 6 months left. holy moly.

i've been putting off doing notes for form 2 for..well months now. i find what they must learn so pointless. have to keep trying.

new batch of movies im running through. some good stuff. i like movies.

that's it

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