I figured since I'm going so insane lately, I decided to start writing out my thoughts. My inner-workings. The last few months there's this emptiness. I love my husband and son, but I feel so completely run-down and suffocated. I've always been free-spirited, a wanderer I guess. I don't get close to others and I'm so avoidant. I don't know why I am ( Read more... )

Either I'm very intimidating, or Floridians are very passive-aggressive. I'm always so honest. And I can honestly say I don't know anyone here who I trust completely. I miss Jenn. She will always be my best friend. She would tell me if I was being a ridiculous asshole. You don't get that kind of friendship here. There is no loyalty at all. People ( Read more... )

I can't believe it's February 2010. Where did the time go? My son Brendan is one year old. It went by quickly. I'm so busy. In 20 months I will be Registered Nurse. Being an adult is strange. I'll be 25 in a little over a week. Definite quarter-life crisis. I've had a rough couple of months honestly. Sadly, I don't think I have anyone I can trust ( Read more... )

Being a mom has it's good times but man it can be boring sometimes. So say happys mothers day to your moms. I now sympathize with every mom ever. Its really a rough job.

In other news I'm taking my nursing entrance exam next month and I need to start studying hardcore. Its a 4 hour exam. There's calculus on it. Kill me now. haha.

I need to get out of the house before I completely lose my mind. And why do they have all these commercials at 3am that are for products to get a bigger penis or boner? Do advertisers assume that insomniacs are also sex addicts? wtf?

So Cute..

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My son is 3 weeks old. Being a mom is great and he is adorable.. but I'm developing the baby blues really bad. It is hard work and you never fully sleep. I'm happy the baby is well and I guess that's all that should matter. Babies change everything in every way possible.

So I'm 36.5 weeks, and I got some news at the doctor today. Apparently after my last ultrasound, they noticed my son is already 8.5 pounds and 20 inches long, and I will not be able to deliver vaginally. They aren't letting me go to 40 weeks because they are afraid he will be 11+ pounds by then, and it's obviously not safe. So it look like I'll be ( Read more... )

HAHAHHAHA. This is called a "hand-phone". If I saw someone with one of these, I would laugh. Doesn't it make it way harder to talk? It's must less efficient than a cell-phone. I remember back in the day, when I had a beeper, and things were so much easier.


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Man. I've been so worrysome lately. I just want this pregnancy to finally end so I can meet my son! I'm so big and tired and heart-burned out now. Sometimes I panic that I won't know what to do, and that I have to get back to work real soon after the baby because Matt is providing for us. Having a baby really makes you scared about finances! I mean ( Read more... )