so i guess i'll use this computerized journal thingy for what it is most commonly used for. Something about tonight is not right. something about him is not right. Friendships so sacred have been smeared with dirt. Everything is running away from me at a million miles an hour. He looks at me, says to trust him, says to tell him. He betrays me ( Read more... )

I've got questions...I'm sure you'd love to answer them but your busy with your own questions and that's cool. No pressure. WE all have questions about things we wish we knew. Maybe you want to know something about those crazy cicadas, and if you do im not making fun of you...it is a very sincere question, which i will answer when im done asking ( Read more... )

It's a long term suicide plan ( Read more... )

alright so its been awhile since i've updated this pathetic journal which i have started to create. I have no excuses other than my astute disregard for responsibility throughout the summertime days. other than that not much has happened. However there is a topic of interest... i would like ot hear opinions on homosexuality as far as its ( Read more... )

I'm lost in my music.....i close my eyes and my voice sounds like ten and my chords become an orchestra. I guess that's when it comes to me that life is so much more than this existence where i eek out pleasure from perishable things. It's in those few moments that truth is within my grasp, and just as I reach for it, it illudes me.

Never have i felt as dissatisfactory as i do now.
What my words speak my actions prove lies.
I've tripped into the hole i've dug
every word

metaphorical reasoning suffocates my honesty with blue paint that covers my skies ( Read more... )

It's late at night and the glow of the computer screen makes my eyes blurry and sore. My roommate sleeps in his bed, or at least he tries to sleep, i try to type quietly so he doesnt wake up and throw things at me. It's at these times that i try to gather my thoughts, try to determine meaning in the meaningless. My masturbation of philosophy, ( Read more... )

The weekend was great. I got to play a lil show thingy with my guitar and trumpet in hand and my brother accompanying me on the side. It was incredible. The music just flows through our bones haha. I bought a euphonium so the happy tunes will go on. Just a weekend with the brothers...nothing quite clears the mind like that does ( Read more... )

This is my first entry in this newfound internet journal that has currently been brought to my attention (rather forcibly) as an 'exciting vehicle for your emotions and therapeutic because people can read about and comment on your life.' You could imagine my surprise at this person sounding excited about such a venture. My surprise was further ( Read more... )