i feel.... i dont even know what i feel anymore. i used to be so closed off but now i am way more open. i dont let things bother me anymore. i dont get attached. i barely let anyone in. and i'm ok with it. i think. fuck. my. life ( Read more... )

i have a gun to my head

but you're going to be the one to pull the trigger.

Kurt Vonnegut dead at 84.

so i got a call today from a sergent in the air force ( Read more... )

this week has been hecktic. got back from mexico. got a horrible HORRIBLE sunbrn on my leg and wrist... worked a shit load. got into a fight with tim. made up..twice ( Read more... )

i love this song..even if it is depressing as hell..

so me and tim leave tonight for steven's point. then tomorrow its off to mexico.

my phone WILL NOT WORK while i'm gone. so do not call me or text.

wish me luck.

miss you.

tim showed up to my house last night with a dozen roses and a box of chocolates. hahaha so sweet. cliche as hell but fucking sweet!!

i adore my boy.

we watched snatch on my laptop then slept in all day. poor thing has to work until midnght though. but i guess i'll see him after that. yay.

*sigh* this is a good feeling

he asked me last night while we were falling asleep, to guess what he was thinking. i told him he was thinking about pancakes.

he said no. he was thinking that i was beautiful and he was really lucky to have me.

wow.

i worked for 11 hours yesterday with no break. i am tired as hell. and tim is on his way to get me so we can go to the airport to get my passport for mexico... oh yea he's taking me to mexico at the end of the month.

i want to go to the open mic tonight but i have to work again today and all week. i am so tired. and cranky.

it's not pretty.

is myspace not working for anyone else either??? i haven't been able to get on the damn thing all day.

ps: tim is gay.

pps: no he's not. :)