New Years resolutions mean nothing more than the daily ones I pose to myself, but you can't help but think about them. But looking at this year vs this time last year, things are really eerily similar. Everything comes full circle. The one change is Carl. He has become a big part of my life, a solid and permanent part of it, for the time being. I ( Read more... )

i am truly truly happy again.

i can breathe again. i can function again as a whole again. i am centered again. despite everything and the improbability of it all, i love it :)

i miss twilight. i miss edward.

yes i am pathetic. im gonna go read now =D

ive been thinking alot about the new year. i never really gave much thought to it before, but now ive been thinking about all the things im leaving behind in 2006 and all the things im looking forward to here in 2007 ( Read more... )

know what i hate? i hate waiting for something i desperatly want. i hate feeling all anxious until i get it. sometimes the anticipation is the best part. proms are a good example of a good anticipation. you can relish it. but times like these im just restless and irritable till i get what i want. i think the difference is knowing youll get it or ( Read more... )

i. hate. the. EFFING. snow ( Read more... )

well. im home. it was alot of fun. ummmm yeah. i am....very sick of things. i need change.

i miss lazy days and warm summer nights. i miss driving all around the bay area with lauren, just laughing and singing loudly (and badly) to the radio. i miss falling asleep on the beach and having my puppy in my back seat. i miss running into the night not caring what happens, just glad to feel alive. i miss swing around hugs and staying up all ( Read more... )

im home. it feels good and bad at the same time. being with kids makes you realize how many defenses you put up every day that they dont. i kinda stripped myself down, but now ive got to erect those walls again if im going to survive. that hole in my chest went away this past week, it was wonderful to be able to breathe. but i was driving around ( Read more... )

who loves moulin rouge? i love moulin rouge. i want to marry it hahaha

new icon cuz as much as i adore my old one (how big is YOUR rocketship? ahahaha) it was time for a change.

also. as fun as its been to be melodramatic on here, im bored of that also. so perhaps a real entry from time to time. so yes!