i have a DATE!!!!!!!! damnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn! wow... holy shit... next sunday i am going to the movies avec mon nouveau ami austin :-D haha. he takes french as well. imagine that?! we're going to go see *catch me if you can* wowwwww! hehe. i'm so excited. he's like wow. he reminds me so much of james in so many ways and i didn't even realize ( Read more... )

austin just get better by the secons... i'm AMAZEDDDD. we've been talking for like an hour and a half. i'm so crazy about him... like he knows exactly what i want and we have so much in common and it's like we take the words right out of eachothers mouths... it's amazinggggggg, like wow... he even said *this is amazinggg* i'm acting MYSELF and ( Read more... )

i met a guy... at the party.... he's REALLY cute. his name is austin. he has sparkly blue eyes. we danced... slow danced and he gave me his screen name. we're talking now... wow... he knows the juliana theory... this is fucking wonderful. we kept smiling at eachother and stuff. he's like WOW. i'm AMAZED. for the first time in wow... forever and a ( Read more... )

haha my plans going through, i'm happy about that, but it's making me tired, hopefully it won't be long, and everything will be okay... it will all be over and there won't be any more *problem ( Read more... )

this morning was good. matt made me feel good. he goes *i still have to give you your xmas present...* and i wa slike *what?* and he goes *2 words Brian ******* * haha. he's like... come talk to me in lunch today and i'll see what i can do :-) i got scared though so matt said tomorrow :-D this kids HOTT he would never want me :-( but i figured why ( Read more... )

i'm still blah... i go back to school tomorrow. and i'm sacred... i'm not ready to go back, it's only for two days and i don't know how long i'll be there before they send me away, if they send me away. i have a feeling they're planning on it. being me and my mom got the brochure... 3 times... thats never a good sign. i kinda can feel a panic ( Read more... )

tony came on... we talked for a while... wow... who knew i would here from him... he imed me... wow... i'm speachless... just very suprised...

all night i just cryed... 12pm struck and i just cryed more. 10 minutes passed, and my cell whone rang... and honestly i was shocked... it was jess. she saved me. i think she was confused because i was crying, but i was happy, when she called i cryed of happiness, because someone, just one person, that one person, remeber me and called on the phone ( Read more... )

i felt okay for a mear 24 hours... the dark cloud is closing in again. right now i just feel like i want to die. the year of 2202 is coming to a close... and i don't want it to. why? because i want it to be jan 1, 2002 again... i was with james, i was happy, there was so much going on, right now i'm nothing, i just honestl;y with i was gone. i'm ( Read more... )

happy new years eve guys... i'm staying home... might visit a party for a while... but i don't particularly want to go. i iwsh i had tony :-/ blahhh. i felt loved with him.

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