hey guys... i'm making a new live journal user name... it's not exactly set up yet but add me as a friend okay? tasted_ink i don't think i'll be posting anymore from here... i need a fresh start with a fresh journal.... i thought it might be a good idea :-D

i'm saying goodbye to all the shit, the shit that doesn't matter because you know what? why the fuck am i doing this to myself? i have AN AWSOME boyfriend and teo AWSOME best friends. i just feel like for once the person i love loves me back, the fact that i didn't have to say i love him and he said he loves me is amazing, and he cares about me, ( Read more... )

well i haven't written since i was anticipating my day with austin. IT WAS AMAZING. HE IS AMAZING.he eneded up just coming here and we watched american pie cause he never saw it before. we watched the entire movie. he held my hand it was cute :-D then after the movie.. haha :-D thats when the fun started... it felt like 3 minutes but in realityis ( Read more... )

austin should be home anyy time now :-D i'm nervous. i feel sick I HATE food. i decided to have a little yogurt (apoximately 60cal) for lunch cause wanted to have SOME enegry for today but now i just feel sick. i feel a little better i guess though, i'm gonna be horrible when we bring him home :-( i'm gonna go. bye bye xoxo

i'm alone... reality hit, i'm fucking alone. i can feel everything in my head spinning. theres no one, no one cares, i'm alone alone. i can't say anything else theres nothing else thats logical enough to say. i've put myself in the facade that certain people care long enough. i feel like it's been my security blanket for so long. i just want to ( Read more... )

saturdayyyyyyyyyy! it's a fucking miracle i swear. i just want to be with AUSTIN. thats all i want honestly NOTHING could make me feel better. i want himmmmmmmmmmm now!!!!!!! i wonder if he'll ask me out? i hope :-X i like him alot... i mean thats obvious and apperently he likes me alot. i just hope it stays that way... i get to sleep tomorrow... ( Read more... )

he makes me this fucking crazy....

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today was blahh... at school atleast... my back hurts severly... so i went to the nurse durring lunch and layed with a heating pad. i'm exhausted... and i weighed myself this morning... i lost atleast anbother 6lbs. which is good i guess... i got a bit to go yet.

austin is at swim *sigh* i wana talk to him :-( i miss him. i have to finish my ( Read more... )

me and austin are being rather mushy today haha i like it though... we're doing the whole *your amazing thank god i found you* shit. i wana see him NOW damn it. the anticipation is killing me.

my infactuation is growing fonder... he had swimming all afternoon so he told me to leave him little messages while he had his away message on :-D i've had butterflies all day. like he likes me... my friend that goes to his school said everyone was talking about me there. he's like wow. i sound all bubbly haha. lik i'm all smiley. *DAMN* who knew a ( Read more... )