Did you really think that it was over when you hung up the phone and said goodnight? And did you ever think that it would be too much? I can't leave without saying goodbye. So did you really think that you could take it? Could you make it alone tonight? I never could have hoped for anything more. Be my angel if you can, alright. You always say ( Read more... )

talked to midoriweedle {lara} loads and loads today!! i felt like kicking myself for not talking to her in so long! ahh i missed her. i forgot exactly how far ago we have gone back to, that i have been reading of her... since i was like 13. damn... she was talking about "tool" so i decided to download them and they are awsomeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. i should save my ( Read more... )

yeah now i'm just really fucking upset... i dont know i guess i somewhat expected him to ask me out tonight or something, maybe i hoped for something a little better. but i got nothing form him at all nothing, barely answers in a conversation. fuck pop music... look what it doesw to me. i just want to be somethingother then together, i'm sick of ( Read more... )

today was the first valentines day that didn't screw me over. no i didn't see austin caus eh had swim practice but he left me messages and we're gonna be together tomorrow. what did happen... okay, well i was in a fight with nathen yesterday and the day before because he was being an ass hole and being pisssy... and it was at the wrong time, so i ( Read more... )

therres no other word to describe it rather then discontent. no mad... but certainly not happy... not exactly sad.... it's weird. austin took his ex girlfriend somewhere today cause he promised her something a while back... let me tell you it made me crazy cause he JUST got home... and he hadn't been home since 4:40 and it's 10:46. my mind starts ( Read more... )

i just ate a fucking bagel. i'm fucking fat i hate it. i want to die. i deserve to die. fuck. i hate everything and everyone.

REALIZATION - i don't care about anything... it doesn't matter. i'm in too many bad situations, too much shit to even try living anymore. FUCK PEOPLE. i don't even have fucking real friends. where the fuck is jess. fucking sick. fuck fuck fuck.

nathens being a dick. apperently people have been saying we look like we're going out cause WE TALK IN ( Read more... )

well i'm sick of everything. i don't feel any better then i did friday. macy has lime disease. woke up to that on saturday morning cause she couldn't walk. my baby. my poor baby. why does this shit ahppen to the people around me and never me?> i'm the one who deserves it.

austin came over last night, my little bit of happiness. the ONLY sanity i ( Read more... )

todays been a fucking rollercoaster. theres alot going on. i feel pretty bad, my friend used to like this guy and he talks to me now... and he pretty much flat out told me he wants to go out with me and is sorry he didn't start talking to me sooner cause now i have austin and he regrets not talking to me before. he's an awsome guy and this causes ( Read more... )

WOW. thats all i can say WOW. alot has happened. i was sick all last week, then i come in monday and i'm talking to mirriam... she's friends with a girl who good friends with james. apperently james honest to god thought i HATED him *GASP* (lol i know it's like wtf it was the total opposit for how long?) but she was like OMG SHE DEFFINETLY DOESN'T ( Read more... )