it's been a while.
i'll get back into this eventually.
stuff is going on. weird stuff. no serious complaints.
oh, i almost died. my life gets pretty extreme sometimes.

i'll be back soon. promise.

i read your letter
the one you left when you broke into my house
i'm retracing every step you made
and you said you meant it
there's a piece of me in every single
second of every single day
but if it's true then tell me how it got this way

i love you so much but do me a favor, baby, don't reply.
because i can dish it out, but i can't take it.

sometimes i feels like screaming at the top of my lungs for as long as i can. until i'm crying and hurting from screaming so much and i can't breathe.
or i want to punch every single person in the face until it's broken and bloody and swollen.
or i want to slam my fists into walls until my hands are shattered beyond repair.

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when i was younger, i was scared of going into the bathroom at night.
sometimes, if i think about it, i still am.

this is shitty

you've been living awhile in the front of my skull, making orders.
you've been writing me rules, shrinking maps, redrawing borders.
i've been repeating your speeches but the audience just doesn't follow.
because i'm leaving out words, punctuation, and it sounds pretty hollow.

i've been living in bed because now you tell me to sleep.
i've been hiding my ( Read more... )

if i care about something, i need to keep it to myself. no one else will care as much as i do and i just get my feelings hurt.
time to start shutting people out again.

everything is changing but everything i want to change is staying exactly the same.
i don't bitch and complain about every single thing anymore like i used because i thought it would help, but it doesn't.

i don't care anymore. i'm ignoring everything.

ohhhhh myyyyyy goddddddddddd
oh my god