songs keep trying to tell me things. it's like somewhere within the chords and the drums and the harmonies, there's this giant secret teasing me, begging me to listen again, listen closer, hear the secrets of life.

maybe i just can't focus on life itself long enough to find its secrets.

so an older gentleman came through my register at menards last night. how the conversation started i do not remember, but he told me he was the owner of a bar ("the club"), and that if i showed up last night and asked for monty, he would buy me a drink. i was generally in the mood to go out anyway, and then he said the magical words "karaoke ( Read more... )

can love last a lifetime anymore? i suppose it can, at the very least i know it's meant to ( Read more... )

i'm leaving rockford tomorrow to move back to des moines.

on purpose.

i'm also really thinking that a couple people here are going to miss me. and that makes me a little happy.

i don't know how many times a person's heart is supposed to break. i wonder if there's some kind of rule ( Read more... )

i am leaving for africa on wednesday ( Read more... )

i have to get out of here. and it's not just that i get annoyed with my mother, though that is admittedly part of it. i'm just sick of being alone all the time. i'm sick of being 20 years old and stuck in my parents' house for days on end just out of lack of other places to be. i'm sick of not having anyone my age to go out for coffee with. i' ( Read more... )

i cannot wait to leave your house ( Read more... )

i've come to discover that it is fairly difficult to find a good job.

i hate that.

i'm so in love with you ( Read more... )