...why's it so hard...

[bella4you]

i don't know why i can't just tell people i care about the most how i truly feel about things ...or why i really do something...i guess it's cause i'm worried the truth will scare them off. When people i could care less about ask me why i do or feel something, i just tell them "because i like to" or "because that's the way i feel"...but when people

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lost whom?

[anonymous]

who have you lost?

Re: lost whom?

[bella4you]

To whomever wrote this question...the answer is michael from mississippi. As to why i think this, hmm...let's see...i didn't get a phone call, an email, and not even an instant message from him on my birthday. I understand that we had a big argument, but still...it was my birthday, it mattered so much to me. Not to mention I left like ten instant messages for his away message the same night we had the argument and all were about how i am sorry, stuff concerning our argument, and about how i wanted him to call me when he got the messages. And then today, I was supposed to get flowers at work from him, but they didn't come, so he must have cancelled their being sent. I know i don't own him, i know that we're not dating...but i care about him so very much and i wish that he would just call me and tell me everything's okay between us. <3KeL*

p.s. by the way, who is this??

Re: lost whom?

[anonymous]

Well why does it matter if your not dating him? And why didnt you call him back if it was so important?

Re: lost whom?

[bella4you]

Call him back when though? He never called except today...and when he called today he said he would be calling back. ...so why would i call him back when he said he'd call back? i mean, i was expecting him to call me back, so i didn't think i should pick up the phone and call him...don't get me wrong, i wanted to, but i thought that since he said he'd call, he'd call when he was ready to ...and it really doesn't matter that i'm not dating him, i just didn't want you or anyone else to think i was being possessive...but in all honest truth, i cannot help but feel like being possessive...not that he's a possession...just, i care s-o much about him...he understands me in a way no one else does, he lets me be who i am in every area of my personality/lifestyle, unlike anyone else i've ever met. oh and the night we argued, i called his house, but no one picked up...which just made me think he was ignoring me...which hurt. maybe i misunderstood...but that's how i felt...that's all. but understand he really does mean s-o much to me..no matter