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[bella_rivolta]

it's been years since someone verbally kicked the shit out of me. years since i had to deal with such anger and flat-out meanness. years...

but it would seem that those years have taught me a thing or two...

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[mortalsimi]

::shakes her head::

why do people like her even exist?

really.

keep it up, babe. you don't have to do what anyone else wants.

it's YOUR life.

[bella_rivolta]

grrr rrr rr r.

that's what i think. my mother's voice has been in my head today: fuck them ALL. i know what i'm doing, dammit.

*fierce girls of the world unite*

[mortalsimi]

fuck yeah.. remember? we're queens.

today, be a but-i-believe-in-peace-BITCH queen!

[bella_rivolta]

thanks sweetness.

[benson3]

Oye vey........Communication is so murky sometimes......I hate internet chats because there is so much room for misunderstandings.......Words are only about 8% of communication.......I am proud that you stood up for yourself.......I hope that you and The Aunt can find some time to sit face to face to communicate and share your individual truths!......Keep on keeping on with what is working today dear heart.....

[bella_rivolta]

oh, she's like this in person. just never directed it at me before. silly me for thinking she never would....

anyway. thanks for the encouragement, sorely needed.

[andreakj]

I only read the first fourth or so, it got too upsetting for me to read beyond that.

She just doesn't get it- but almost everyone in your life, especially the people who matter the most, know that you're getting by day by day, and that you will get better.

I have my fingers crossed for J to get that job so that you vn get the health insurance that you need and deserve.

Also- the check will be in the mail in the next few weeks!

[bella_rivolta]

i channeled this comment when i wrote the latest entry. i'm making my own family, you know? and you're right, that is what matters.

thanks again, as always, for helping me keep my focus.

*mwah*

[just_3_times]

I don't know if it's safe for me in here =)
You learned two important lessons:
1. People don't live on pedestals, can't work.
2. You don't owe ANYBODY an explanation, you do what you need to do to take care of yourself, and you do it when you are ready. You don't live on anyones' schedule but your own.

[bella_rivolta]

of course you're safe. and to make it easier, i'll just add you. does that work?

thanks for the kind/powerful words. i like you already. :)

[just_3_times]

Thank you for adding me. It is always nice to have an extra friend helping you figure things out. I was diagnosed as bipolar I 4 years ago, and I have been in that journal for a couple years, but after 4 years of counseling (I had a really bad counselor) my new counselor diagnosed me as PTSD and told me I needed to join a group of some kind, so I came here. My next two topics are going to be extremely tough to put into print for the world to view, but if that's what it takes, then I will do it. Happy your along for the ride:)