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Ugh
Im supposed to have a date tonight but i doubt that its gonna happen. Surprise! Heh. It sucks though. Im doing well except im so lonely its like a separate entity now. Its hard to ignore. But i will keep on keeping on cause what choice do i have?
Ugh what the fuck am i talking about????
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When the action begins.
Im on a liquid diet again. And because delusion is my middle name i already assume since my brain knows the body's intentions, that i will have lost 5 pounds by sheer will of thought. Heh! Im a nutter!
I know this wont last so im doing it as long as i can swallow it and then switch to low/no carbs and go from.there. ive been too complacent too long ( Read more... ) -
Brusha brusha brusha
Thats my sweeping sound. I need to clean facebook house. There are i notice a bunch of fellas on my facebook who all wanted to potentially date/bang me that id forgotten about cause we add each other then they stay silent. Till they get new girlfriends then its all love doves and shit and this needs to go in my journal of woe for Ned as a trigger i ( Read more... ) -
Lamentation
I was just belly aching on facebook about my lack of vacation ability. The thing is when im at home the constant vigilance is tiring. Im always on the lookout for the big bad. Fire, burglars, bedbugs you name it. And thats just the house. Lets no start on the progeny or nana. Looking for signs of bullying, depression, sexual.abuse, personality ( Read more... ) -
Creeeeeamps!!!!
I dont really have anything to say im just trying to flex my lj muscle again. It takes what 3 straight days to make something permanent or a habit or some shit. Well its 3 or 30. Either way im taking lj back...
Ive been retracing my pmdd steps. I can scarce deal with how fucking intensely i felt that and did that for like years. I lived this monthly ( Read more... ) -
Where else but here???
Would i lay my sadness for what just took place in america last night. Im not shocked because rob ford. I knew people mistook bluster for qualification so im not surprised. Im sad. Sad for women, children, persons of colour, muslims, latinos, the lgbtq, the disabled the vets i mean just look at how fucking far reaching voting in that lumox is on ( Read more... ) -
Oh Subject Line How Ive Missed Thee!
Live journal!!!!!!!! Hiya lova! Its been a hot ass minute since i was all up in ya. Ive literally missed the shit outta you. I swear even if no one reads im back. I have an app now so this will make life that much easier to bring my blatherings here as opposed to facebook. This just feels like the right medium right now.
Saw the pmdd nurse today. ( Read more... ) -
Mornin Ponderings!
Since I've lost a significant amount of weight, I've been having some issues. I have heard tell these are not unheard of and thus, I am NOT a special snowflake. Buuut I am having issues all the same. Every time i catch an outside glimpse of myself I for reals get confused. Mostly because when i was 314 I thought I was cute as fuck. And now that I ( Read more... ) -
Perchance a change.
I've been in cognitive behavioural therapy since Early Feb. And by satan, I think it's having some small effect. I won't bore you with the all the details of what i've been learning the last 10 weeks. But i will touch on the core believes that I discovered. I had always known they were there i just didn't know they had a fancy schmancy name, or a ( Read more... ) -
Livejournal for life... We're taking it back;)
Hi lj. I doubt highly anyone is still on here buuuut. I am and I hope to make it habit again. I am just realizing that I had gotten it into my head that given the past 2 years of cray cray, I didn't have the right to share my shit, cause really, anyone still reading this would have been all full up of my bullshit. So I just withdrew and kept my ( Read more... )