My life is a box I can let few people into ( Read more... )

Tommy is getting married. I have not mentioned him because i was stuck somewhere between reality/fantasy with him. He is ready to get married and he has a perspective. And I am a little sad. But happy for him. I think he and I could be so perfect for one another. But life got in the way of us exploring that. And life goes on, as it always does. I ( Read more... )

You know this is getting really tired. He is bugging. He moved in right next to her. I don't understand why into 2 years later that are still interacting. I mean I talk to my ex periodically and that is cause we have a kid together. He fails to affect me daily the way she lets him affect her. And I sit there day after day listening to her gripe ( Read more... )

I had 2 pieces of Chicken Parmisean (thin sliced) and a mountain of peas. I enjoyed it. I had a tall glass of tea and I had a thought about buying something sweet and then I said WHY!?!? U just did good why sabotage. U are not even hungry....

So I am ok right now. Watching Shrek 2 With baby, however, I did sleep until 1:30pm today. Why?

~Liv

I had tea, 2 packets of peaches and cream oat meal. Took My anti. The baby is home today. I did not really get up. Aj groomed himself and walked. I think I shall read and cuddle my munchkin. I told Aj to tell em he was still out of it after he got his shot. A lil fever. I will pick up Aj at dismissal ( Read more... )

I was watching a show about heroin addicts- who stayed clean, some failed and relapsed periodically, some went to jail... others began to steal. They had a camp and rehab for them... for them to overcome thier addiction: Court mandated even. I am fat. My drug is food... I relapse. No one will arrest me for overeating. No one will tell me that if I ( Read more... )

"Mom when I grow up I am going to be thin and beautiful. And a pop star. And a Scientist. And I am going to be noble and good and perfect. And I will be always in love with one man! And he will love me, too mommy ( Read more... )

I have fallen again. I may not have a job. I have a problem. It is depression. I requested short term disability. The thing is I don't know if I will get it. I hope I do. I did not detest my job. I am crying alot. I am broke. How did it all come to this. I just got paid. I am forgetful. I dont have any habits, unless u count eating. I am in the ( Read more... )

Ever shut up for fear of appearing stupid? For fear that you would eat your words, even if only to throw it up in your own face ( Read more... )

Yesterday I turned 29. I was happy. A family birthday celebration ensued. My mom began to cry and talked about her divorce again. For 2 hours. We all left a little down ( Read more... )