so i finally did it. i got my hair cut short. here's some pics.

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slowly i feel like i might be getting better, but then something else brings me down to square one. i don't know how i feel about things. the only thing i feel is exhaustion. all i've been doing is either working, or staying by brittany's side to make sure she's still alive. i wish there was more i could do for that girl, but i can't think of ( Read more... )

i wonder if people think about me anymore. the only person i really talk to from naz anymore is bre, which is weird considering we aren't together... i found a new circle of friends, and i couldn't be more miserable... it's really annoying having most of your friends be dykes. they all end up liking me, and i only like one of them, and she's ( Read more... )

if anyone actually read what i wrote yesterday... i do regret it. but i'm also glad i said it. it made me think a lot about things... and i guess, as much as i don't want to say it, things are much better off this way. i just hope she doesn't fuck up her life, but it looks like that's what's going to happen. i'm not a part of that anymore, so ( Read more... )

Fuck you titty suckin' two balled bitch with a fat green clit ( Read more... )

well, friday i really fucked up and did something really stupid. i fucked a guy. and that guy hurt me pretty badly (physically). the part that i thought was funny was that, when i dropped him off at home, he gave jess a hug, said bye to dave, and ignored me. haha, i guess i was really that bad! hahahahahaha! i think it's amusing...really ( Read more... )

some days i miss her, most days i don't. i'm trying to move on with my life without thinking about her from time to time. i guess it's nice to know that she's moved on so quickly. but i can't do that. i feel like i wasted so much time in my life being with her. she keeps saying that i treated her like shit, and i definitly didn't. but however ( Read more... )

so after 14 months of being together, bre and i are over... really over. some say it's about time, because things were getting really rotten between her and i. but she doesn't love me anymore, so she says. i don't know...i'm so emotional from everything that's been happening to me lately, and this is just like icing on the cake, and the cake is ( Read more... )

i feel so lost inside
yet i cannot hide
from myself
or anyone else
though i still try...

i can no longer cry
these tears will not fall
for my eyes are now dry
there are no more tears
though i still try...

my heart will never mend
from all the pain
deep inside my heart
i don't want to forget
though i still try...