well ( Read more... )

so, she was a girly girl.
not my type at all.

it was sad.

some shit is going on and i feel confused and angry and so out of control.
and worthless.

and i just don't know what to do.

i haven't updated in a long time.

i've been trying to get with guys to fill the lonely feeling i've had.
but it doesn't work. why? BECAUSE I'M GAYYYYY.
STUPER GAY.
so gay it's kind of ridiculous.

&boys just really don't know how to touch a girl. seriously.
they are all dumb anyway, so i don't care.

i'm going on a blind date with this 23 year old ( Read more... )

the water from the rain wipes my boots clean from all the mud they acquired when i went for a walk through the park. behind me, my footprints are being erased just moments after i make them and i can't help but smirk at all the irony. my surroundings are deciding to match my mood again, and feeling worthless is only emphasized when even your ( Read more... )

well.
just kidding about that whole life is getting better! thing ( Read more... )

and when i thought things couldn't get worse...

for once, they actually didn't.
for once, they got betterthe bestie decided to play cupid. set me up with her coworker. first glance, we were both very attracted. wondering, 'who is he/she?' before we even knew we had a mutual friend ( Read more... )

everything around me is falling apart.
and i don't know how to fix it, or if it's even fixable.

relapse, relax again

nobody is supposed to know.