wow. somehow one of kai's friends found me on myspace. she imed me and we've been talking since. whenever this happens i get soo pissed at myself. i used to be such an awful person. not only the way i treated kai but the swiftness i was willing to judge everyone as an enemie or a competetor. so what if she's blond and has a great body?! what i ( Read more... )

i saw a man die today. i stood there helplessly. there was nothing i could do. a woman stood nearby saying a prayer for him. everyone left once he was taken away. i stayed and asked the MTA lady if she wanted help cleaning up. she told me no and i asked her if she wanted a hug. she called me her angel. i'm so far from being an angel but to ( Read more... )

well because of my REALLY shitty day on friday (like honestly haven't had that bad of a day in a REALLY long time. everyone got on my nerves, i was pmsing you guys know the deal) i actually had an amazing weekend! friday night was kinda boring but i told jon something that had been on my mind and now i'm through with it and it's in the past and ( Read more... )

wow weird night. the party was mad scary at rebecca's house. met this really cute guy who goes to laguardia. i'm thinking that eva deserves him more than i do. whatever. people were pissing me off so badly tonight and eli was all up in my business. aside from that i liked stealing ali's marc jacobs sweatshirt and hanging out with my friends ( Read more... )

i was freaking out on the beach the other day, kicking around sand and not giving a shit that people were staring at me. my mom told me i won a gold key from scholastic for my writing portfolio!!!! holy shit! i didn't believe her, i mean i always feel somewhat like a poser or something when i say "yeah i'm a writer" or "i write". i always thought ( Read more... )

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yeah i just got back and you know what? i would give anything to have stayed there forever. fuck electricity it's an eccentricity that clouds your mind and takes away from your life (like right now i should be unpacking and cleaning my room). i have changed and i can feel it in my room. i feel diconnected from whoever USED to live here. no i'm ( Read more... )

so i had a good day. i went to african danse and then as a result couldn't have lunch :-( it's all good though cause JP let us out of science early :-P i went to water polo and afterwards Pia, Yaffa, Taylor and Andrew came over. That was fun although eveyone was making cracks that i didn't have a tv. i don't need a tv! i can be a computer ( Read more... )

hey so i haven't updated for real in a while. it feels so weird to be back at school "full time" just cause i haven't been since break! i had a great day though. hung out with eric, tanya and jeremy in the library. found out that benedict is actually a really awesome person and i don't give him enough credit. he gave me a hug to make me feel ( Read more... )

meh i'm bored and sick again. no idea how i'm getting sick this often but whatever. i had a realization that i'm pretty sure i've had before about loving your friends. it's so warped for me though it's almost funny.

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