WOW. So apparently i went to school and became totally addicted to myspace and facebook and LJ was tossed aside. sad story. well to fill in, i came home from school, started going to OCC and working as a waitress. and it might have been the dumbest things ive ever done...well close to it. I hate OCC, I hate my job, i miss school. but super pumped ( Read more... )

Oh my gosh what in the crap is wrong with me? I have to stop this or I'm going to be really pissed off. Starting tomorrow...NO MORE...THIS IS IT.

I can't do this. My heart is so broken that I don't know if I can even go on. It hurts so bad. As hard as I try to believe that you are there I can't. I look to you, I call for you, yet I hear nothing. I'm trying to do it all on my own and it's getting me no where. I'm starting all over and now I don't even know if it is worth it. Why won't you ( Read more... )

It's so hard to just let go and trust that God is going to take care of everything. It's so hard not to make things happen the way that I want them to. I know that I could make things happen exactly how I want them to, but I don't think that it would be the best idea. But it's too hard to just say "ok God here goes..." I am so impatient and I hate ( Read more... )

You're an Expert Kisser
You're a kissing pro, but it's all about quality and not quantity
You've perfected your kissing technique and can knock anyone's socks off
And you're adaptable, giving each partner what they crave
When it comes down to it, your kisses are truly unforgettable

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Well I wish I could say that today was as goos as yesterday, but it wasn't. It pretty much sucked. LIke I went to the guys soccer game, and that was pretty fun, and then I went to the apple barn, and that was ok, and I went to the girls game and the won, but the boys lost...ick...And I had fun at the games, but it's like as soon as we got in the ( Read more... )

So last night I went out on a hay ride and then to a bonfire, and I had so much fun For real. I actually got to hang out with some new people, and make some new friends...YAY! Things are getting a lot better her, I think I just need to let go of all the "what if's" I have about going to SAU. I mean yeah I think I would have fun there and all, and I ( Read more... )

So I can't even write my feelings in my LJ with out haveing to explain every little DETAIL. Where am I supposed to vent, why can't I just write my feelings down? Do you think I WANT to feel like this, do you think I WANT things to be like this....because I DON'T. If I could just let go and walk away I WOULD. In a freaking HEARTBEAT. So I'm sorry ( Read more... )

I don't know what to say, I don't know what to do, I don't know how to react, I don't know what to tell you. I'm pretty much SUPER confused, I have no idea what direction I am going to go with my life, and I need to figure it out REAL quick. Or when semester rolls around I'm going to be P*R*E*T*T*Y SCREWED.