basically this is the worst summer of my life. bad things keep happening and i dont know what to do anymore... its been really fucking hard.. im not going to lie ive thought about suicide a lot even though i know i wouldnt go through with it i just obsess over it.. when things get shitty i dont want to deal with them i just feel like life is ( Read more... )

soo i love valentines day but i hate it because i never have a valentine. there's only one time i can remember having a valentine and that was at my prettiest age, the seventh grade. i was such a turn-on with my over-sized turtle glasses and some hot yellow and blue ucla colored braces. well anyways nick wheat knocked on my door (he was quite a ( Read more... )

i'm miserable, chico is lame and i just want to cuddle

i got my license

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and again i come back to the same problem. i hate my friends, i really do and i know its my fault. i am attracted to psychotic people. i envy people who are perfect and have their lives together and i can't be around them because they make me sick. i wish i were them, i with my life were that way but i'll never be normal and i'll never know what i ( Read more... )

i am sooooo out of here! GONE! LEAVING! FOREVER!!!!!!! college is a beautiful thing and i can't wait to leave and never come back. but ona more depressing note i found out that one of my old friends died in a car accident and i'm not quite sure how i feel about that. on one hand i'm sad because he lived such a shitty, short life and i wish he could ( Read more... )

i get sick once a month. i think i am dying of pneumonia.. either that or mono. who really knows... or it could be a sinus infection, or just a cold. either way i am sick and it sucks because it's all hot and beach-like while i am boiling sick with yellow fever on my death bed. not to be dramatic or anything. well i am tired and i should probably ( Read more... )

i don't like anyone.

OKAY i'm giving a quote and whoever can tell me what movie this is from will be the love of my life... stacey, steph, you should know this.

"that must be Nigel with the bree.."

it's only our favorite movie guys.... here's another hint... "we're involved"