I'm now at sucksunshine

My favorite bands are Radiohead, Tool, Dave Matthews Band, and Pink Floyd. How do those equate? Pulsating ambient soundscapes about dissociation, passionate spiritual rants exploring the meaning of meaning ( Read more... )

A part of my childhood is gone. Andy and I were in the same class every year. Chapman was an interesting school because everyone was friends with everyone except for one or two ostracized few. Andy and I were both left-handed and messy. We often got each other's papers back, our handwriting was indistinguishable. Andy also went to after school care ( Read more... )

My body is so strange. I went rollerblading yesterday along the spring water trail and inflicted two identical, albeit invisible, large sore and and stiff spots on my ankles. Along with these strange little bumps growing under my skin on my shins. I had two of them "biopsied" (a fancy word for cutting them out) and studied, results aren't back yet ( Read more... )

I dreamt about walking in the forest. I spit up something, that then turned into a slug. The first one was shaped like a diamond, with a small head and a fat body. I spit up again, this slug was larger. I was disgusted and embarassed. Caitlin laughed and picked it up for me, and held it up to the light to show me that it was iradescent, blue and ( Read more... )

Modern consumer culture has trained us for dis-integration. Advertisers get rich leveraging our fragmentation: they imply one aspect of our humanity - smelly armpits, asymmetrical breasts, wrinkles, fat - renders the entirety of us unlovable. “Reality TV” rewards the scheming of contestants who view deceit as the necessary means to an end: a ( Read more... )

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Penelope and her obsessive compulsive tapestry ( Read more... )

I went to a party and there was a ferret in the bathroom, in a cage, sleeping in a hammock. I was pretty drunk, so I precided to see if it was friendly and then took it out of it's cage to play. It rolled around. It licked my face. I don't think I've ever been so happy.

Skyler came in and we both played with the ferret, cheering it's every move.

Wow, I really do rant a little too much in here. I had never really noticed how much anger is contained in this journal until now, looking back through it. Knowing my family, I should try to not make ridiculous anger a habit. However, I shouldn't harbor anger by holding it in not writing it down. I feel so peaceful right now, all that anger made me ( Read more... )