Ok, so. Nothing new. Except I need to hire someone, and no one needs a job. Its not like I can just post a sign on the door and give the job to some damn tweeker. So, I guess no spring break for Ky. Just workworkwork. I Really do hate living.

I got a job. OK Tobacco. Come see me sometime. :D

All my time is concentrated on psychology, Aaron, and my friends. That's ok for now. I feel the need to rush into life, but I can't exactly figure out how to do that. How does one start a life? Go to school, right? Well, school...sucks.

Men are not the focal point in life. I can tell you that as a fact. I'm actually beginning to like singleness. I just want to get a job, go to school, hang out. Whatever. I don't want to constantly worry about how my actions might affect that other person. Or have to wish that they were there at all times. I just can't have anything that can fuck ( Read more... )

You know how when you know someone so well, that you can always tell whether they are lying or not? Well, Aaron is not lying. I do not think he slept with Alicia. However, there is still the question of why she chose to tell me she did. I don't know. I am very confused. But, should I be with him? Do I give him another chance?

I don't really know what to do with myself. I want to be with him so bad. I LOVE him. And I can't have him. He wants to fuck around and make a fool of me. WHY?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!? I don't understand why I'm still so upset. I have really good friends who are trying to make being single fun. The problem is, I just don't want to be single. I ( Read more... )

I'm losing my sanity. I love him. He is so convincing. He says he's going to stick with his story. He will not tell me. He says it never happened. Why would she lie? There is no point. She does'nt know me. Do I believe the one I love over a girl I don't know? Or does it make it all the more obvious? I need to be ALONE.

This lady I know, told me about a place where she used to live in California called Half Moon's Bay. Wouldn't it be DIVINE to live in a town called Half Moon's bay? She said it was a medium sized town, like Chandler, but much prettier. I wouldn't even mind living in an apartment there. I need to live.

"What nephew," said the king,
"is the wind in that door?"
SIR THOMAS MALORY
Le Morte d'Arthur

Who gives a fuck. I just do what my instincts tell me. I am really trying to be happy. I want to move to another state and just start over.