well i think that about tears it. my life has gone to hell ( Read more... )

my dog had gone missing last night. he got out from when my mother opened the door about 3 and then she couldn't find him. all night she looked. i looked for a while too. i figured he had gone off to die. i just got the call this morning that he was picked up last night and taken to the animal hospital. they want to put him to sleep. which is being ( Read more... )

almost died thursday.... dehydrated to the point where i was slipping into severe shock. fate consipired to save me and prevent me from being on the road when things got very bad. i survived and had some help. i am finally back on my feet and not dead ( Read more... )

been using the OKC journal for a while, rather than cut and paste back to here, just going to link it. http://www.okcupid.com/profile?u=Belthazar1113

here i am. survived another valentines day. whee ( Read more... )

i really didn't think i would feel this when i talked to her ( Read more... )

eat a bullet ( Read more... )

i hurt cori... i didn't even know she would react like that. i had a really bad day and i went and got a comfort kiss and cuddle and i was so tired i told her ( Read more... )

i didn't update when it happened because i thought i was just going to go ahead and die and be done with it. I actually tried that night as well. I wrote my note, got my things tidy, grabbed a knife and a bottle of wine and went out to let that be my final night. Kari dropped the bottom of my world out, she tore my heart out and spit on the hole. ( Read more... )

so this would make the second weekend in a row kari cancelled on me.... its hard to belive someone like her loves me, or even that she exists ( Read more... )