i'll be eighteen(18) in 23 days. hopefully moving out soon also. so much bullshit at home, so fucking tired of it. i want to go to riverside's tolo, so somebody should be nice and ask me. pretty please! anyway. this weather has got me down, wah wah wah. shut up. hokay so, i need more girl friends, ive sorta lost touch with all my bitches. what am i ( Read more... )

so fall time has really got me down, the air smells so good, but it makes me so lonely. ive been having terrible luck with the ladies lately. just terrible. nada-zip-zilch baby, ive almost begun to beg.
i dont know what is with me lately, all i want to do is nothing. just be lazy and loaf around the house. been reading lots of Choke lately, so good ( Read more... )

i was walking to my car in a parking garage, wearing a tuxedo(god knows why!). a man was in front of me, he was wearing bright orange windbreaker. a man five cars in front of him loads a gun. the dude in the orange jacket all the sudden gets fuckin shot in the face by napoleon dynomite's doppleganger. so i get all freaked out and bolt for my car, ( Read more... )

my dad "lost" my entire folder on my computer when he backed-up and reformatted yesterday. this includes 50 plus writes(poems, stories, journal entries, thoughts, etc.), tons of pictures, music (some my own), lots of other things, most of which were entirely irreplacable. it's funny how careful he is with me, this is my father's love at it's ( Read more... )

I am finding things harder and harder to believe, things i would normally be alright with ya know?
everything is firming up, turning into solids and not changing. i wish, i wish it could be like it was. back when i felt young. back when i didnt know better, back when i couldn't hit my head on your hard heart.

these things called leaves ( Read more... )

i read 79 pages of diary on the way to seattle today. my brother graduated. congradulations tumnis.

i miss you brian.

if i had anything important to say at all, i would probably say it now.

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i want so much out of life and when i get a little, i fuck it up so i never really get to the actualization of my hopes. growing up is a fucking crock. damnit, i'm pissed. if i could only stop for just a second and realize whats going on and take a step back and think hmmm, maybe im being an asshole, life would be so much easier. turns out im not ( Read more... )

i'm an asshole ( Read more... )