well i have been thinking a lot. and crying a lot. thinking about my dad. crying because i miss him. i really wish none of the things happened between us that happened. he is my dad and no one can take him from me. ever. he is always mine. nothing will ever change that.

well im out.
not too much to say.

i live with my mother now. my father gave me the ol' boot because he is a racist bitch. i feel bad for him at certain times because he just doesnt realize how things work in the "real world." so now because my dad doesnt understand how the real world works he is sitting in jail. until around april. crazy i know. but things happened that were very ( Read more... )

So lately has been interesting. Uhm, my brother rocks majorly! He has been doing a lot for me lately. So has Darryl. They both have been there for me except for yesterday when I had a terrible day ( Read more... )

So lately has been interesting. Uhm, my brother rocks majorly! He has been doing a lot for me lately. So has Darryl. They both have been there for me except for yesterday when I had a terrible day ( Read more... )

Sooo lately I haven't understood the whole concept of why I am still alive. Seeing as how I watched my bestfriend drown in a pool cause he is too heavy for me, then almost lost him because of that. That could have just as easily been me, instead of him. To be honest I am scared to even think I might take a bath, I don't want to go swimming anymore ( Read more... )

I NEVER in my life thought the bullshit that went down last night would ever go down pretty much. I am in soooo much fucking pain, and am NO longer referring to my girl as my girl. Never in my life did I think a car door could just about fully close with someone's arm in the door! But they can.. Because that happened to me last night. I'm tired ( Read more... )

So I'm at my mom's house, which is suposed to be fun.. Correct? Well, then why am I not having fun.. && why am I pissed off!! I couldn't tell you that.. But I can tell you that I am extremely tired of whenever I do something.. My sister gets on my ass as though I need another mother.. I DON"T!! I can take care of me for the time being.. If I need ( Read more... )

So life has been interesting. Just like right now, but I will not inform others of this because it will embarass the moron eating a candle, and the other whom is eating FROZEN GARLIC TOAST! Today I worked my ass off, because well, I'm not so sure why, Oh yes... I remember now clearly. I was told last night.. "Rachel I need you to come and help ( Read more... )

It's my birthday and I'm chillen with Jessica!!!
Eric and shane and Jessica made my birthday kick ass last night!

So, this is probably the first update in months! Wait yes this completely is. So life has been pretty okay for me lately. Friends of mine are good to me, and are usually most of the time, nice. Not mean, nice. My family, still pretty disfunctional, but what more could I ask for? A normal one? I think not! My dad's girlfriend is an interesting ( Read more... )