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[benmon]

Why?? I dont think i should feel threatened in my own house. Close up your items.. get a lock, protect them.. Really.. why the fuck should I.. I got all my shit right where i can get it.. theres no reason why it should not be removed by anyone. And if it is, your the one I feel sorry for.. Its not right.. Every day of my life it hurts me soo much

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[aloneinacrowd_]

you're so incredibly strong. i don't know anyone else that could have handled it the way you do. you're amazing for not showing people how much it really kills you.

you have to be the strength for everyone. i know it's not fair, but you're the only one with enough to hold it all together.

you keep your mom sane, and you keep amanda from following a bad example. you're all she's got left to look up to. you're her reassurance of a better life. you're everything to that girl.

weather you realize it or not, you're the one thats holding together whats left of this mess.

maybe she'll come around. maybe she'll get better. maybe you'll get everything back. maybe through time, mistakes will be forgiven. maybe eventually everything will fall perfectly back into place.. but maybe it won't. and maybe she'll never be the same, and maybe you'll never get what you had back.. but you always have memories.. and sometimes, you need to just cherish that, and just accept the past as your only truth for the future

: )

[benmon]

your the best.. u make me feel good.. i really hope things get better tho.. its tough..

thanks jennifer...
:)