More living more learning. more becoming annoyed with the pessimistic know it all apraoch everyone here has. But, I stay resiliant. Despite the teasing and the logical disorder others have I stay focused on my goal. My soul important goal is not simply to be in a movie. Living here you can do that in a weekend. My goal is to take it over. It use to ( Read more... )

So, I am looking at my picture today, and doing a little bit of whatv i like to call....retroactive reintergrated selfexplorative thinking.....or...I just made that up. So, I am looking at my picture and thinking....I am happy being me. I don;t like to think much about me, ecspeically not when I am sitting there with 200 F'en pictures. It makes my ( Read more... )

I got my headshots back today but they fogged up the address. So, I have to wait until tuesday for the next batch. Fotunatly I do have like ....3 of the ones with the wrong address. So, I will be sending them home. and as I tell people.....that is the most wonderful cock you have ever seen (that is what I say to girls)(to guys I say that is the ( Read more... )

You'll never know who you can become, unless you let go of what you have done ( Read more... )

With absolutly no slip ups in my personal life I continue. I found a ninch that ensures me safty. Which has a small cost, but with that small cost is a safty blanket from the outside world. This place seems bleak, and I at times feel myself become more and more devastated by the things around me. Constant negativity will do that to you. The bad ( Read more... )

Oh, and soemthing was recen;t brough to my attention. I make my self seem taken....not "out there". See, I always figure, I don;t care enough. I mean, I can talk,m but I don't make the direct link to wanting to have sex with soemone. I am not really after that, and to be honest would get yelled at anyway (wooo life). But yesterday my roomate ( Read more... )

I truly appreciate anyone and everyone for their kindness and supportive nature in times of adversity. Not everything is handed to me, actually nothign really is, and sometimes it's nice to have the people in my life that I do. So. tomorrow I get my pictures taken, which is a giant step again in the direction that I need to be. I have;nt been ( Read more... )

So, I am writing a story.....no, fuck that. I am wriitng the great american novel. It's only a few pages long so far, but it's not about bulk. Sometimes it's sentences that blow you away not pages. Moby Dick, that was a waste of paper. You could have shortened it. I started writng what my life is like here. It includes everything. A real slice of ( Read more... )

It has yet to set in. I have no job and the one I had I got let go of for being to honest with people. I live far from home, and am running out of funds pretty fast. On top of that, I have more money to spend on Pictures and stuff. Yet, I don't feel the need to be worried as if some undeniable even will strike soon and all will be well. Who knows. ( Read more... )

Have you ever felt that people are building you up so much that faliure is only inevitable ( Read more... )