Often, I feel that I type what I feel. And althought on a regular basis I try my hardest to no be negative in anyway, and simply let everything roll off my back. The truth is sometimes while writing I put someone very special to me down. That comes froma bitterness of wanting something so much but for once just not having it work out. That creates ( Read more... )

to some people I am silly. This is all just a silly trip and I will be back in 6 months. And then to other people, it is impossible for me to fail. the most flattering of them was an email I got from and old friend where she said. you are to rare a gem for people to not take you. You are beautiful and you will do whatever it is that you want....I ( Read more... )

The things I have seen are beautiful beyond any art or man made structure possible. I have watched the sun go down over mountians in Utah and Arizona. I have seen what happens when brush fires catch and scorch the earth for miles. I have climbed a mountain and looked at an actual cactus....not the cultivated lying ones you see at Mejeir (Never ( Read more... )

To say that I have no fear is very silly. I am often asked if I am afraid. Yes, but I take that fear and nervous energy and turn it into something positive. I've found that not everyone is for me and not everyone is agaist me, but despite either side all normally agree that I am more than capable. This is the ultimate flattery to me. I lost sight ( Read more... )

People are impossible. When you change for the better they change for the worse. And when you try to help them, they refuse your help. And when you try to leave them, they let you go. And when you start to get over them they call you asking you not to let go. And this is the cycle of which i exist. On other news, life is fucking grand, I did take a ( Read more... )

I just wrote when of those long letters that the reciever will never get. The sender just wanted to say so much. I have learned alot in these last few years. About trust, about human relations. And alot of the human heart, In the end, I was always told that we will deal with it when the time comes. Unfortunatly the great clock that no one controls ( Read more... )

despite being a 24 hour refugee for freedom there is something that I often overlook to mention in conversation. And as much religious slader as I say, you would have to say I say those things because I understand religion. Where does this come from. I am so thankful for this life. For everything around me, good and bad. I appreiate every single ( Read more... )

"Wasted all your time with me, I know I'm a mess right now. Don't give up in me I've waited it out for you"

sorta cute. Sorta desperate, but for today.....it will do for today...BECAUSE. It is on the playlist right now.

There was a gross deducation of applilcal housing because of me constantly trying to find a place that maybe I could have company with. At this point, it biols down to one. And when your party number dwindles to 1. You have alot less to worry about and alot more time to make yourself happy. This has all been brought on by recent realizations and

Looked at the date today and thought to myself. I am more than ready to live today. I am more than ready to have a awesome day. The worse part is, I had a horrible headache and I had a ugly fuckign dream. And then, despite arguing at like...9:30. Part my fault,....well the intiating it part was. But then Iw as told, were just friends,a nd I say ( Read more... )