I often hide my feelings. I am a master at that.

One year ago. I got punched in the face by you....It's actually quite funny when you think about it. I got my jaw checked and then....then no, fuck it. Get this. And then...I was spit on. IN MY FACE mind you. Yeah, I was minding my own business doing nothign wrong, and then. OUT OF NOWHERE. SWAT...PEWTIEWIE. And this is my life. I always justified ( Read more... )

Lately, friends of mine have provided beautiful words for me. And I thank them. Tyler and his telling me I can change the energy at my will. And Trevor saying. your always on, I've never seen oyu have an off night, how do you do it ( Read more... )

I like the things people do on purpose to get a reaction. I smile. And I giggle ( Read more... )

Wow. I am a weak person. And ya know what. I probably always will be. But, I try. I

I had a conversation with someone today. Probably the most honest person ever. It was brutal. It was disguisting. It was beatiful. To expose your past, and present. To say things, without blinking or histatitng. It was fucking poetry. But, of course, it was the vicious kind of poetry that rips your soul out. Everything from their mother being a ( Read more... )

Funny thing I heard..
I don't remember it exactly so I will reword it for myself.

Fuck being nice. Fuck trying to save people. The last person that was nice and tried to save everyone was nailed to boards.

Talk about being a souless cunt, I fall into that catagory vividly. The hate of being told of a resemblence, so what do I do. I look up those people's pictures. I figure fuck, if I look so similar I should at least look at them and see if they look good witha hairstlye. We look alike so I know I would look stupid with it to. Fuck looks man. I want ( Read more... )

She is pushing me away, because secretly I am afraid to take big steps on my own. She is pushing me away because she believes I am great. Meanwhile I believe I'm human. I elvate myself on occasion. She is pushing me away even thought she wants me to stay ( Read more... )

Alright, as fun as this seems, it's really not. I have been in this lab at this computer for 2 fucking hours. I find stuff, I print it. Then my friend here, she finds stuff, and prints it. 2 fucking hours later....We are still finding stuff, and printing it. In between I make so stupid comment about how glad that this is my saterday and she smiles ( Read more... )