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i'm not entirely sure, but i am pretty sure, that before i actually head off to college, i will commence a new livejournal.
like a whole new blog.
reinventing my livejournal self, as it were.
i mean, new email addresses, new facebook networks, new wardrobe, new school. it's all so much.
and-i'm not at beach week. i miss everyone.
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'all the immediate unknowns are better than knowing this tired and lonely fate...'
lol. most of this day has been lol.
but then the second i got home i crashed. mom wasn't gonna let me go to the frisbee dinner, so it's not like i had any inspiration to be active or just generally alive. the next thing i know, i wake up in my own bed.
it was the most uncomfortable waking-up ever. because i woke up in a puddle of my own sweat and ( Read more... ) -
go fix the electrice fence or something...
oh my god. i just talked to geddes online. she gave me her cell number and she's gonna call me later? she'll be in utah this summer though, goodness. it's almost just too weird to talk to her again, i don't know anything about her but i know i used to be madly in love with the girl (in the bff sort of way, not the romantic, lusty sort of way...)
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"she fell funny" - french, the departed
i am SO out of it. my life is everywhere and nowhere. NOwhere. my cellphone didn't have signal ALL evening tonight. i bought this cool purple nailpolish that will be my nail color for the summer, saw "pirates 3" for the second time this afternoon with ben hechtazoid and teddy parker. saw kelly h. and grace b. at coldstone afterwards, but only by ( Read more... ) -
gotta go to my last frisbee tournament game thing of sidwell ultimate.
i'm watching "The Goonies" for the first time in like, two years or something. it's this cheesy, child-star movie from the 80's. and boy was i obsessed with it. i would literally watch it back to back 3 times a day. and i was so absolutely in love and obsessed with sean astin, but most of all, corey feldman. omg corey feldman was a girl's orgasm in ( Read more... ) -
"Man who give compliment, give nothing...person who accept compliment get less!" - Confucius
recently, it's been as if everything is over. this is over, that is over, this thing is ending, etc. like everything's coming to an end. the final chapter. the last installment. the last chance. the thought made me shed two small little tears, even when i was smiling, even when there was no other place i'd rather be. it's fucking depressing. no, ( Read more... ) -
("...and it shall be called...'Poodles'!" she said triumphantly, as if someone cared.)
FREEDOM (freedom)
BEAUTY
TRUTH AND LOOOOOoooooovvvveee...
i feel nothing i feel i should or that i wasn't already now that my APs are over. relief, yes, but it's not immense. i feel relaxed. but i'd felt relaxed before. and now it's like there's big empty gap in my life. no classes? no studying? no homework? how the hell can that be? but it is. but i ( Read more... ) -
i wish tomorrow were here. i love you, tomorrow.
ugh. i must rid myself of these feelings.
i'm like a bird. a duck. who has just managed to wamp her way out of a huge oily mud puddle.
i've got to shake my feathers out. breathe the fresh air again. waddle around like the free bird i am. (free bird. that's a good song. lynyrd skynyrd.)
also, i've got to let some volunteer environmentalist wearing ( Read more... ) -
"i need you like a heart needs a beat, it's nothing new"
OneRepublic.
go listen to them. go on, get.
also - my soul is an island. a lost, forbidden island. it's on no maps. all indigenous species are unbeknownst to the world. but it's somewhere out there, beyond the sea mist and storm clouds.
i feel like life, my life, is slowly, gradually getting simpler. like i'm unwinding, but not unravelling. like ( Read more... )