How can you say I have to be your friend and choose your happiness over mine? How is that fair? How is that not cruel? Or mean? Or you not manipulating me ( Read more... )

"I'll close my eyes, then I won't see
The love you don't feel when you're holding me.
Morning will come and I'll do what's right;
Just give me till then to give up this fight...
And I will give up this fight."

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It's been more than a year. A year of trying to give up this fight.

When will I stop loving him? When will I stop hurting? When will it just end?

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Sometimes lyrics sum up better what I'm going through, than my own written words...

Crumbling by Emery

I fell in love with the world
(She gave me) everything that I deserve
(I had) all that I wanted and more, right in my hands
(Some things just never last)
She ran away with the sun
(I guess) the moon and the stars must have followed along
'Cause I'm ( Read more... )

I have been REPLACED. There is no other way to explain it, or to see it. You can't justify your actions. You can't call it what it is not. You can't pretend anymore.

In the end, it was your choice. With her influence, it was your choice. And even though I'm still in love with you, I hate you for it. For letting her win, for letting her in. For ( Read more... )

Trying to put these last few months into words has been an utter failure...
Here I am, struggling once more, to express with the right words who I have become because of you.

Because it has come to this: 
if you disappear from my life, it would destroy me...
I guess I just love you too much.

...

It hurts daily... to be just friends when we were once ( Read more... )

I don't want to make this decision now. I still have a year to figure out my future, but everything will depend on my choices of the present.

While my heart wants something, my mind is screaming to think things through.

I just need some more time.

Ugh. I miss you so much. I can't wait to go back to Buenos Aires to see you.
I'm finally home, and I'm counting the days until I travel back.

How did it get this way? I mean, before I couldn't wait to leave, and now I'm considering staying for good.
Not that I would say that out loud (or even to you specifically) just yet.   ;)

"It's nothing but time and a face that you lose.
I chose to feel it and you couldn't choose.
I'll write you a postcard,
I'll send you the news,
From a house down the road from real love..."

I think these lyrics sum it up, my dear quicksand. I don't have any regrets about you and I don't long for our past any longer. Independently from the fact that ( Read more... )

You scare me. This scares me.
I'm getting too accustomed to you, too quickly.

10 hours... It has only been 10 hours since the last time we saw each other, and I want to see you again.

This scares me. You scare me.
How did you do it? How did you get me to open up?

16 days... It has only been 16 days, and you already know more about me than what my ( Read more... )

I'm going to be here in Buenos Aires for longer than I planned. According to new guidelines of the school, it's going to take me three years instead of two to complete my master's degree.

It wouldn't be that bad, if I had not wanted to start law school in 2011. Now, its going to take me even longer to get where I want to be.

I feel so ( Read more... )